Is it too much to ask

it is personal read on, you have been warned

Is it too much to ask to be normal?
When everything swings up and down
Left and right
My mind speaks in languages I don't want to understand
My mind is vicious and hurts more than anything
When all I want to do more than anything is smile
I end up crying in my own despair
I just want to repair
What has been lost and broken.