I Think

Traumatic Emotions

I think throughout the days
I think throughout the nights
I think about all of the lost moments and chances in life.
I find myself thinking more and more of the past
The times when my gut was in a tight mass
The times when I took the road less scary
The times when I looked passed the joy
I think that I should have gone with the fear.
I think that I should have been more persistent with my career.
I think that the fear is still here.
I think that trauma has reigned
I think of the things lost and not gained
I think I wish that I could go back
I think that the past is a big joke
I think that I would like to give God a big poke
What was he thinking when he created this plan for me
I know they say he doesn't give us more than we can handle
I am not Wonder Woman, I would say
But now instead of thinking, most days I pray.
I want my thinking to be less and not more
I want to be happy the way I was before
All the the trauma and noise in my head
Oh, wait the happy was replaced by dread
I think about the PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) I was taught
The PMA I think is the only way
To get through this life with God by my side
Living life is quite a wild ride
Give me just a moment of time
You can share your trauma
I can share mine
I think and know deep in my heart
That there is a chance to unbreak our hearts
Keep a smile on your face and think with a laugh
Life can be such a blast
Throw away the doubt
Scream and shout
We are all in control of our thinking