NOT YOUR MAYBE

tired of always being someone's option, always being given mixed emotions. time to move on

I missed you.
Not just the chats,
The late-night laughs
But how you made me
Feel like I mattered.
The way your words
Felt like home… for a minute

You came close, so close
Then disappeared just
Like the morning mist
And I really thought
you were serious.
You didn’t stay
You just left enough for yourself
To make it hard for me to forget

And me? I held on.
To the idea of having you
To the hope that,
Maybe you would come back
And mean it this time
I’m tired of hoping for someone
Who won’t choose me fully

I am not asking for perfect
Just for real.
For someone who shows up
And stays.
If you are not sure
say so
But don’t keep pulling me in
Just to leave me hanging.

Because me?
I’m soft, yes
But I’m not stupid
I know what I want
I’m not here to be an option
Or your backup plan
While you figure yourself out

I want love
That shows up and stays
That doesn't run
When things get tough
So, if you’re not sure,
Don’t come closer
Don’t say things
You won’t live up to

I am not here to be your maybe
Because I was never made
To be someone’s option
I’m here for something real.
Something that’s treats me
The way I learned
To treat myself.