Sheer Terror

I broke my hip and contemplated my life without freedom

After I broke my hip, I contemplated my future while in the hospital. Nothing is more valuable than freedom. For the first time in my sixty years, I couldn't move a few feet without help.
The hospital didn't want me risking another fall so I was trapped in bed most of the time.
I live alone. I don't have a maid or wife or kids. How will I exist?
My parents who passed away years ago immigrated from Hungary. I have no immediate family.
I have cousins but I live far away from New York City. Here in Tampa, I have not even a distant relative.
I was the first of my family born in America.
My physical therapists and occupational therapists told me we will release you only when we believe it's safe.
It's not that simple. Will I be able to drive? If not I can't always rely on friends to help out. Being stuck all day at home will make psychotic.
Even beside being able to drive I had other problems. How will I do laundry? How will I go grocery shopping? What if I can't move things from the refrigerator to the microwave?
Everybody reassured me that my walker a rollerton would solve most of my issues.
However, the rollerton is heavy. I thought what if I can't get it into and out of the car.
My biggest fear was that I would fall down again.
The PTs and OTs were very good intentioned but the GREEDY hospital really did try to release me too early.
Luckily my cousin intervened and I extracted a few more days.
So I was released. I was scared of everything.
Today I'm almost 100% back to normal. I not only can manipulate the walker but walk without it.
I feel so lucky just to be here. I'm at home again and living alone.
Freedom is everything.