Depth (drowning)

The most melodramatic of the poems. About the choppy waters we all circumnavigate

I am drowning.
Tossed to and fro by
water salt and sadness.
Stuck in the wetness by
the weight of heavy heart.
Thoughts pop up, and memories
and feelings
gleaming as the droplets.
Foam spat high and basking
in the light of the moon.
Twice reflected before
it hits my eyes
to then disappears again
becoming the waves

So many loves there are
the parental love from mother to son
and that of son to mother
of lust, of self, of other
So many people there are
with their own loves
their givings, their takings, faults
and their successes

So many drowning
struggling against the waves
faces barely breaking the surface.
Desperately
gasping for air.
And only peripherally aware they are
surrounded by others. Some in the same
dire straits. Some effortlessly
maneuvering the waves
Elegantly stepping forth
without even seeming to notice
the trashing wilds below them.
Tension remains where they place their feet.

And me.
thinking of -them-
wishing to know if they
are drowning too.
Hoping they are not
whilst the idea that they aren't
only strengthens these currents

I am caught
I am drowning
I have been here before

'One day,' we are told,
'you will stop sinking.
You will see a hand stretched out
towards you. For you.
Their hand. Or your own.
We will take it and scramble
-sodden and shivering-
upon the waters' surface
Grateful upon discovering
that the trashing waves
and the tender blue green
of the waters - once again
are able to bear our weight.'

Many hands we will encounter
some we miss in our
effort not to sink.
Some do not appear as hands
their benefaction only
realized when we are no longer distracted.

Always we will find ourselves
back in those cold, exhausting
depths
Desperately struggling for air.
Drowning

Many hands we will encounter
but only one is yours
You.
Who I am waiting for;
will sing my soul for
and hear my song be answered
And together we will ride the waves

I heard the way of finding you
is to just stop drowning.