Falling

One must jump to fall

I feel my body fall first and my conscience second
Fall like the rain droplets do
On a girls yellow raincoat
They slick the bright nylon
I slick the air much the same as particles rush past me
Or maybe rush through me
As your words did once
A heat with each syllable
No ground approaches my self-collapsing speed
The load-bearing wall within
Gives itself up to pressure
Splinters of wood surround
My rate of collapse picks up as time does and you appear
In front of me, so real, truthful
Nothing is really there though
I chose this lie to continue
Distortions frequent the periphery of this, my, place
Once with bright shine
Twice with dark design
And the finale waves dirty
They hit me throughout the fall, shattering my parts
I am brought into bits and
I am losing each little piece
Among the rush of air
You didn’t save me this time, you didn’t look my way

Even though I don’t think I really wanted it