5 more minutes

Lyrics I wrote

5 More Minutes

Could I do it,
All over again,
You're in my head,
Another symptom of my dread,
It's a bittersweet section where my dreams take me,
You see-
Nothing can last as long as the self loathing you placed/
In my mind,
if you hated me so bad,
Why can't you let me go and let me live.

Chorus:
5 more minutes,
I replay that moment/
Living inside my head/
rent free,
I'm back to replaying all of our moments,
Like my favourite vinyl,
That I've decided to donate to our local goodwill,
5 more minutes,
if I only had those seconds to changem
that outcome.

You're like a drug addiction,
one that if I don't let go of,
I could lose everything,
the cancer cells that once remained dormant,
Now roam rampant,
even on things like my memory,
it's failing more and more,
you could have left me on read,
Instead of I don't know leading me on for...
I don't know over 12 years.

Chorus:
5 more minutes,
I replay that moment/
Living inside my head/
rent free,
I'm back to replaying all of our moments,
Like my favourite vinyl,
That I've decided to donate to our local goodwill,
5 more minutes,
if I only had those seconds to changem
that outcome.

Instead of adoration,
You judged me in condemenation,
Wish you could have gave me a reason,
Another notch in the belt of heartaches and sighs,
On an island of my own brokeness,
Trust issues and fears of abandoment,
You've broken me and who I once was.