Just Let Me Be

No worries

I am a mess today.
I don't care about anything,
I just want to be,
but I don't want to talk.

It is not about you
It is not about me
there is just a place that I am
in a state of fog that cannot be discussed
as it has no name.

My right knee hurts,
my toes feel jammed together.
My left heal hurts
it wants relief
from all the weight that it physically bears
everyday all day.

I want and need relief
but even I am not sure
what type of relief.

I know I'm in pain
but I cannot even begin to describe
where or what it is
or even what it is about.

Does my pain exist?
Or is it all inside my head?
My state of mind even feels low?
Who am I, What is my purpose?

Don't judge me!
I already judge myself!!
Today, just let me be !!