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April 26, 2022 at 12:53am
April 26, 2022 at 12:53am
My Dad saw his doctor yesterday. He has anemia. The doctor ordered him to take Vitamin B12. My Dad was late getting home from the doctor's office. He had to go to the pharmacy and get his meds that the doctor ordered for him. I heated the leftovers for my dinner while waiting for him. When he got home he looked tired. The doctor ordered for him physical therapy treatments. The physical therapy office called and left a message for him to call them and get an appointment set up. I sat with my Dad through part of dinner which was biscuits (rolls) with a hamburger patty. I checked with his Medicare advantage provider if they took the physical therapy clinic in their network. It turns out they do. So he'll be going for physical therapy to treat his arthritic knee and back. I think it's a good idea. His doctor is thorough.
April 12, 2022 at 2:36am
April 12, 2022 at 2:36am
Yesterday I met my new psychiatrist. He was an informal type of guy. At first he looked warily at me over his mask. A pair of round blue eyes stared at me. I was a bit afraid but we got on better and easily. I guess he wasn't expecting me to be educated. He probably meets many people of different stripes in his profession. I told him about my medications and how one of them wasn't performing as well as it should. He gave me another med to try and that made me happy. This morning I'm feeling much more hopeful. Somehow the empty feelings are receding from me. I don't know how long it will last but I'll take every morsel of it that I can. I can't help but think what more my life could have in it but if my psychiatrist is anyone to go by, it will have someone to take care of me mental health. You can't believe how difficult it is not to have a psychiatrist. I last saw my last psychiatrist in February and I've been in limbo eversince. Now I've gone through hoops to get to this point with a new psychiatrist. I'd say it was all worthwhile.
March 29, 2022 at 5:26am
March 29, 2022 at 5:26am
Last night I went to bed feeling like dying. My Dad still has pain and it's painful to watch him suffer. Everyone is going through suffering, whether they show it or not. I am sad still but I awoke and gave him pain meds as a new push against the scourge of arthritis that's making him suffer. I am hoping today that he will awaken and feel more relieved. I always sit at my chair in the kitchen in the mornings waiting for his appearance and request for a hot compress with trepidation. I'm going to be strong for him and that will be how I'll counter this sad feelings. He's 93 and he's still strong were it not for this scourge of arthritis that's plaguing him. I ask for your prayers that he will find relief from this pain.
March 28, 2022 at 12:49am
March 28, 2022 at 12:49am
I'm excited. It's after midnight and I was in bed thinking. I decided to practice my yoga again. I still have my yoga mat and my outfits are yoga friendly. I have to build my body back to its normal state. I had a silent heart attack sometime in the past. And I suspect that I have osteoporosis in the making. So I have to relax myself and practice yoga. I have my two dogs that can interfere with the poses. I'll have to tolerate them. And maybe they'll get used to it in a while. I looked up yoga for damaged hearts and they said it's good for heart patients. It lowers blood pressure and lowers the hormones that narrow arteries (cortisol). It is a weight-bearing exercise and it's a good thing to build up your bones. I think it's a good deal for anyone who doesn't want to huff and puff.
March 24, 2022 at 8:59am
March 24, 2022 at 8:59am
I'm waiting for a reply from the sexton of a cemetery that my late Mother is buried in. When she died, I purchased three burial plots. Now, applying for Medicaid coverage requires that I reveal if I have a burial plot and if it is paid for and where it is. I have three days in which to get this information from the sexton of the cemetery. Wish me luck!
March 23, 2022 at 6:23am
March 23, 2022 at 6:23am
Have you ever woken feeling afraid? Or that same feeling creep over your chest and make you wonder what you should be afraid of when all you're doing is sleeping or looking online at your computer? I get a lot. I can't manage it. I have to take a pill to control the feeling. I slog through it and hope it goes away.
March 20, 2022 at 6:11am
March 20, 2022 at 6:11am
My doctor's nurse called and said that my labs seem low but that's because I'm probably dehydrated. She said to drink lots water everyday.
March 17, 2022 at 10:06am
March 17, 2022 at 10:06am
My labs came back and some of it wasn't normal. My electrolytes aren't normal. I looked some of them online to see what they mean. My alkaline phosphatase is abnormal. They think it's a bone disorder. I'm holding strong. I hope it's a mistake. I cling to My Jesus. I could be in heart failure too. Pray for me please.
March 15, 2022 at 7:13am
March 15, 2022 at 7:13am
I just cleaned up the dog because he had poop stuck on his backside. He is used to this and didn't put up a fuss. I still had to keep him still while I washed his rear end with soap and water. He periodically has this problem. I'm careful to give him food these days. And he's a picky eater anyway.

It's good to do this and he's happy I do this for him.
March 11, 2022 at 5:31am
March 11, 2022 at 5:31am
I went to see my doctor on Wednesday this week. She said I needed to have an EKG. That was standard for those in Medicare. So after that she came in and said something else then said I will the cardiologist. That got me. I left without asking what she meant, silly of me. But it was a while before I digested that something could be wrong with my EKG. So I emailed her my question. Yesterday the clinic called and left a message. I spent all afternoon trying to call them back and each time except the last I got no response. When finally I talked to the nurse, she told me the sad news. That I had a septal infarct. That's damaged tissue in the heart that happened sometime in the past during a heart attack. The heart attack was a silent one because I didn't feel anything. Now I need to wrap my head around this. I'm walking around having had a heart attack. I'm one of the lucky ones, I guess. Now I need to prepare myself to see the cardiologist. I hope he has no wish to invade my body to see this septal infarct. As far as the doctor is concerned it's dead tissue. Why would anyone want to do an invasive procedure to detect a septal infarct?

I'm trying to put on a good face on this. The silence of the house surrounds me. I told my Dad about this and he was surprised. We both have had heart attacks in the past. His was decades ago. Mine was probably more recent.

I only hope the clinic finds a good cardiologist to see me. Someone who's understanding and good.

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