blog of a person who seems to be invisible...
ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal.|
Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am.
I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes.
But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you...
|Day 1933 March 2, 2018
In most countries of the world, recovery from the Great Depression began in 1933. In the U.S., recovery began in early 1933, but the U.S. did not return to 1929 GNP for over a decade and still had an unemployment rate of about 15% in 1940, albeit down from the high of 25% in 1933.
Do you believe we are headed for another Great Depression Globally? Or will it only be the United States?
Actually, I feel it is a very real possibility of happening, in our lifetimes. In fact, it was prophesied to will be happening. along with all the terror things going on.
and I do believe it will be a global thing, not just us based, although it may start in the U.S., it won't stay there for long.
|well, isnt this a surprise for me. I logged on and saw my case is now my favorite color....yellow. I wanted to thank everybody who is responsible for this promotion. Thanks for your trust in me...I promise I will not let you down.
|DAY 1918 February 15, 2018
Write about spending a day with your personal hero (living).
Well, Since I am back on the writing band wagon I figured id figure I'd start here... I, in all honestly, have no living heroes in my life. I feel that people let you down and stab you in the back every chance they take. So now begins a new chapter in my life, without the good people i have severely hurt, and the trash.
I am standing up on my own, facing everything life can throw at me and winning because I am worth it. those that don't like it can go away. However I wont. I am here, i'm not going anywhere. Nor am running from anything in my life. I'm standing my ground and am standing up against the storm, and winning.
I have spent my life boosting others up and making their life better, at my own detriment. And then to get the wall brought down on top of me by small minded broken people who need to grow up.
|Its been a good day today..butbi have no patience for crazy people who arent really all that smart...so i will be not talking to those who are just crazy enough to call me a friend then act like they are not...im done indefinitely...dont bother to talk..ears arent listening
|DAY 1792 October 12, 2017
Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out.~Robert Collier
Let's talk about your successes this week. Are they the result of small efforts repeated or did you try something totally out of character for you and it worked?
hmmm. let's see... having a discussion about my successes this week? well in order for me to have a discussion like that i think i am required to have a success or two before that. At least on the other hand ive had no failures either... Not quite sure whether that is part of this or not.
So I guess i haven't failed nor have I succeeded either so it could be like Schrodinger's cat, it could be both good and bad at the same time.
let's just say its been a stressful week with work and other things... it is only because of one special person that helped me keep a smile on my face, that made this day any better.
|DAY 1791 October 11, 2017
"Think of life as a terminal illness, because, if you do, you will live it with joy and passion, as it ought to be lived." - Anna Quindlen What are your thoughts?
I strongly believe life should be lived as if it was your last day. Life is far too short for you not to, while myself I am a perfect example of how one should have limits as to what one does. This year has been chock full of stupid and bad choices made by me, some I can fix some, unfortunately,I can't. Some mistakes are, in hind sight a good thing, because one cant really fix a user, or what the street people would call a poser, unless they really want to be fixed, nor, unfortunately can one fix stupid.
I have learned from my serious mistakes and as I work to rebuild my life into the good man, no the better man or maybe even the best man by far, I was before. I know a better world awaits me no matter what rolls my way. I feel sorry for anybody who tries to get in my way from being the superior man I know myself to be.
that is all i have to say about that!
|This is a poem to someone special to me... it was written for her... I hope she likes it:
To this dark place I've come, and come again
A shred of light I seek at its end.
A shadow from the past I see in the corner
A memory not so long ago
To face my past I must do to survive
To keep my future stong and alive.
To this dark place I've come, and come again
It holds no future for me in the end
I am moving forward with love and light
Honest and open will make that right
To this dark place I will never go again
It turned out to be the true Hell that I was in.
The deceit and lies I was encouraged to say
To cheating my love I will end this day.
This dark place no longer holds a place for me
My mistakes I will pay for the debit is due
My future I pray to God will be spent with you
|DAY 1749: August 30, 2017
Prompt: “Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.”
― Margaret Mead
What have you to say? Have you seen a small group working together achieve change?
through out history there has been many times where regular citizens have made a change in society because they think that they can change everything because they think things should be different.
my own personal beliefs dont fit in with what some radical or by another name crazy people think things should be different. for example those bible thumpers, or the like who have some crazy idea that things should be a certain way based on outdated ideals or some book written over 2000 years ago, by people who really dont have a clue as to life today. I have always told people to have open minds, but most really dont have them, but really dont.
have I ever met people like this? yes i have.
|DAY 1744 August 25, 2017
Write about the smallest insect you've ever seen.
I think the smallest insect I have ever seen is an ant,
not a cat , dog, or even an elephant,
I watched him as he carried his food,
over hills and valley's, and through a stream,
I said dude, your doing great to get it there,
what a feat, there is nothing to compare,
I left him live for bit of time,
he had earned it,
he had earned his dime.
I was proud to say I cheered him on,
i let him live and now he's gone,
I walked away with a bit of a smile,
that grin made the whole day worth while.
One day I hope to see him once again,
so I can sit there and admire him.
|DAY 1745: August 26, 2017
Prompt: "The function of an ideal is not to be realized but, like that of the North Star, to serve as a guiding point." Edward Abbey
What is your North Star?
I know this is a bit late, but I felt quite strongly about this topic so I thought id do it anyway, just because.
An ideal to me it definitely a guiding point in my life. I find that when I follow those guiding posts I end up in a better position than I did before. However, when I don't follow them I end up worse off than I was before. I somehow get lost in the Forrest in and among the broken and diseased trees with now seeming way out, its then that I look for the light of those guide posts that I truly find the guidance that I truly need and want.
As some of you know, I'm not the best at following those guideposts, and stray off the beaten path, then eventually I wander back to it, a little worse for wear, but none the less I get back on the path.
But as to the question of what is my North star, that answer is so simple its silly... God.