blog of a person who seems to be invisible...
ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal.|
Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am.
I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes.
But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you...
|DAY 1708 July 20, 2017
It's a package deal? What if I just want the package without the deal, or the deal without the package? You're the writer, what's it going to be?
A package deal? There really is no negotiating with a package deal, however care must be taken the package deal may
not be to one sides advantage as one may think it is, usually it is not. sometime bargaining can improve this or make it worse, its a coin flip...
me? if you force me into it... then im walking away. if you cant give me time to reason it out then good bye. I've been guilty in the past of not thinking about my choices and made BIG mistakes that destroyed me for years and years yet to come. so I am much more careful now.
|DAY 1677: July 19, 2017
Prompt: "Peace comes within the souls of men when they realize their oneness with the universe." Black Elk
Use this quote to inspire your blog entry.
There is a certain peace that has always been within mans soul since they learned to walk upright. It usually comes when one feels closest to his, or her, supreme being, who ever they choose it to be. In one sense it could be said that peace comes from their realization with their oneness with in the universe, or rather their realization that each and every one of us is a part of a much larger group than ourselves, a team as it were.
It is truly the wises of people that realize this, truly realize this, not just believe it but believe it and know it within their very souls. its that belief that there is "someone" or "something" looking out for us and forgiving us of our simple mistakes.
Sometime this situation can be contrived into something it was never meant to be, by radical extremists, to better their own selfish means, but it is up to each and every one of us as humans to realize and accept each other, and their beliefs.
|DAY 1675: July 17, 2017
Prompt: “Once we accept our limits, we go beyond them.” ― Albert Einstein
Is Mr. Einstein right about how to go beyond our limits?
I believe he is so darn right about that. Look at me for example, I knew my limits and because of knowing them I have grown, as a human and as a man... I no longer settle for the little things in life I want the big things and I am good enough to have them. I learned a big lesson about that recently. I have learned to live beyond my MISTAKES, yes I have made alot of them, but I grew because of those mistakes. For example I am no longer a PC guy, i will NEVER be politically correct ever again... I am politically incorrect, and will not apologize for it. Ive learned not to say im sorry for things so much, and try to say "suck it up butter cup, its real life."
I no longer settle, I rise about it all.
so, yes I do agree with Einstein whole heartedly.
|DAY 1691: July 3, 2017
Prompt: Real contentment must come from within. You and I can not change or control the world around us, but we can change and control the world within us. ~ Warren Wiersbe
What do you have to say about this subject? What is your opinion?
I agree with this thought completely, one must realize that there is only so much of your own perception of reality we can , as humans, can control. You must also realize that through this is our own lives we live, for the most part we are NOT in control of our destinies, or in plainer terms, we are not always in the driver seat.
I firmly believe, when we as humans, more especially as Americans, come to the realization that we are in control of everything, the happier we will all be. We fight over simple land, or deep religious beliefs, again an attempt to control the situation. we kill innocent humans, because they don't conform to our ways, or in some cases simply beat them up until the conform, or simply take all they have from them until they do conform, isn't the way to get anything accomplished at all.
I believe that goes for everything and everybody everywhere, such as being the worlds police force, or interfering with a country just because we want them to have democracy without ever considering whether they want it or not.
It is a really fine line we walk in this en devour, but in the end what is the ultimate goal? I am thinking ...conformity... which is NOT true freedom, it is a perceived freedom and thus not real.
|As the days creep by, and the minutes seems like hours, while the days feel like weeks, I watch life going by with a song. I reflect on all the mistakes, the BIG mistakes I have made. The ones I elevate to the F***up level, have been the dumbest ones of all.All I can do with those is look back and slap myself in the head and say, what the hell was I thinking?
Well I not have a second job I love, I drive cab on the beaches here in Florida, for a company called free beach ride. Normally I am in the area of Johns pass, treasure island, ,Madeira beach. But sometimes I am on st petersburg beach , and pass a grill. I really enjoy this job as a supplement to my regular job. It gets me a little extra money, just in case.
Right now life is a roller coaster for me, it has its ups and downs, its happy and sad moments. I keep most of them to myself, as they are private and personal, but sometimes I share with people I truly care about. Mostly about mistakes I have made in the past, as I have said earlier.
One day I will get things in balance again, and when I do. I will never upset that balance with any more of going on a fools errands. As most of them have been a waste of time effort, and a problem causer all the way around. At least I am happy being me again.
|DAY 1686: June 28, 2017
Prompt: Write about opposites. Positive or Negative. Light or Darkness. Good or Evil. Or pick any other pair of opposites and write about them.
I come from the light,
going towards the darkness.
Am I good?
or just plain evil?
Shall I be a positive ?
or a negative?
Life is full of opposites,
I don't believe we are born to be one or the other,
I believe that we choose which one to be.
I believe most people are what is most advantageous for themselves at any one given time.
Just because I smile, am I good?
Or is that smile the one from the devil himself before he devours his prey?
the choice is up to you, the choice must be made,
will you make it, or let the opportunity fade,
will you be held by the fun,
or simply by the gun.
Yin or Yang is a simple fact,
there is nothing to it, its just that.
|DAY 1680 June 23, 2017
A circle, a square, and a triangle. It's your blog create something with a circle, a square, and a triangle involved.
there once was a circle who was in love with a square. they were happy together. the circle fit nicely within the square with a nice fit. Then the triangle came along and began to manipulate the circle, until the circle thought the triangle was the right one to be with and betrayed the square. Until one day, quite suddenly the triangle had decided not to be i the circles life any longer. The circle was devastated, he had risked everything for the triangle. but, life went on for both.
It did not take long before the circle learned the truth about the triangle, and saw the triangle for being what it really was. The triangle was trying to be a square, because being a square had a better form, and was more liked. But the triangle had misjudged itself, and thought that the triangle was as good as a square, when in reality the triangle was broken, and knew it.
The triangle knowing that it is broken, and that it was in a place it did not want to be, decided to use the circle as a stepping stone to get out of a bad situation, that it created. And once that was accomplished the broken triangle found a broken hexagon, which seemed to fit better and seemed to be fit than anything the triangle ever knew before. so the triangle decided to stay with the hexagon, until something better came along, or till it got tired of it.
|DAY 1672: June 14, 2017
Prompt: Write about your relationship with food.
OMG! where do i begin? if anybody has known me in the real world since I was a teenager, they would know my relationship with food has always been one of supply and demand. Simply put my mind demands food, my body got up and supplied it... I am a big guy, yes bog as in 6"4" but im overweight as well, so its obvious that i have a quick relationship with food, quick because it doesn't stick around long for it.
I have tried many times to break it, but either or my friends, stress or depression, usually pops their head up to bring food back in. I think they get a kick back from food for it.I have had some success, setbacks, and outright failures in dealing with food.
well anyways you get the idea about my relationship with food, its all love and hate.... I love it.... my body hates it.
|“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” ― Plato
Being a mason, or as some call it a Freemason, we are taught that the "light" is actually knowledge, so we are taught tat when we are saying we are looking for light we are seeking knowledge...
so in this phrase a child in the dark and the a man into the light, is reference in my mind to the darkness of ignorance, which most children are deeply enriched in, due to no fault of their own, but a they learn through the life they are given, they gradually come into the light, once the become grown men they seek more light. And once they get that they naturally reach out for further light.
I know this is a bit of a weird concept, and it is also a deep thinking idea, that not everyone will get but these are my thoughts of it. take them for what they are... just concepts and ideas, even thoughts... nothing concrete..
|DAY 1588: March 22, 2017
Prompt: "Each season has its own special blessings." What are some of the blessings of the season. Write about one or all four seasons.
I think each season has its own particular blessings and curses with them. Each having special meanings for whatever the reason for each and all of us. I am not an exception to this rule. My favorite season is the winter season. some reasons are obvious, while others may not be.
Winter, to me is a sleepy season, because everything in nature seems to want to go to sleep, rest and regain strength. Hibernation of animals, and plants is what my mind goes to when i think of sleep. Another part of winter is family. Family times are paramount during this time.. Halloween,thanksgiving and Christmas in my opinion are all family times. and oh yes new years eve is another time during winter, but I guess you could say its winter time too.
The snow, or in Florida the cold weather, i like feeling that, it is kind of relaxing to me, but sadly it is the only break we here in Florida get from the heat. so I enjoy it. it is also very short lived here, and I wish it would stick around longer, but it wont.