No cases here
|were all clear here, yeah right!|
|When I got up this morning I did not expect to see that a popular restaurant in my town had opened for business. My anxiety went through the roof. Travel between states, as far as I know, is still okay. That's how we got 9 cases, some people worked in another state, got it, then came back to our state, there home. (I know there's probably some punctuation problems in that sentence, sorry.). The point is, I also just found out that diabetics are twice as likely to die from this thing. Needless to say, there's the anxiety part.
Then came the angry part. How dare they open up a restaurant in a place that has seen very little action? Are they trying to kill us all? So then I proceeded to get all upset, and when one of my friends came out of his apartment to smoke after I ran away from him, I let into him pretty badly too. He's a Trumper all the way and he can't even tell me why! This guy has ashbergers disease, a form of autism. His brain is stuck in a twenty-year-olds mindset. It's pretty useless to talk to him, but that I did today. I got so mad at myself that I thought I would go back into my apartment and clean something, maybe do dishes.
That's when my brain kicked into hyper mania mode and I cleaned my entire house, and then I went outside to clean my truck! By the time I got done with everything (Mind you I do all this stuff on Saturday every week, so, yesterday.) I met up with him again, then my anger flared up again and I yelled at him some more.
Then as I walked back upstairs I started crying because I feel so bad that I yelled at him, not once, but twice, even if he truly doesn't care, he knows my disabilities and I know his. So now, I'm sitting here typing all this out while crying. I'm supposed to be a man and not cry over nothing, but here I am Bi-polar as f***! all because I heard that a popular restaurant is opening up now. And yes, I know, it's okay for guys to cry, but over just this stuff, I know it didn't phase him at all because he knows me, I should be apologizing not crying like a baby without his binky.
In the end we only have nine cases and the trumpers out here are so relieved that they can now go get haircuts. Unbelievable.
Have a better day than me, or night, whenever you read this. ( now I'm not crying anymore, see?) I hope it's over and my meds start working again tomorrow.
|We now have 9 cases in my county which isn't bad at all and they are all, except one from the south part of the county and there's about 40 miles between the north and south parts of the county. The official record shows that we have had one death, but it was in a different state, that person's home was here. So they count it in the death toll.
Nothing really going on that I want to talk about just yet, so until next time. . . .
|Alright, 9 cases so far and luckily no deaths. I heard a rumor that there were 14 people working out of the county and living in ours who are all positive for CV-19. This is a basic update for anyone who might care. I'm still terrified considering I'm obese, a smoker, and have diabetes. All of those things put me in the "Most likely to croak" scenario. So yeah, a little terrified. I want to at least finish one of my books before I die. So it's up to my one reader to find my stuff and make it all worth millions! You can do that right?
Anyway, in other news, besides this virus crap, my best friend may have liver cancer.So that's why I've barely been on as much. I have been writing though, it's one of my coping skills for any number of my mental illnesses; and it keeps me from thinking about her all the time. I may not be IN love with her anymore but that doesn't mean I don't love her. And to make matters worse, I have just been taken off of a medication that CAUSES cancer. FML! what is going on, I just can't seem to catch a break and bad things have been happening to my best friend for ages and were both good people. We give others chances after chances to prove that they are better than what we see and then finally have to say bye to them for being such morons and breaking the law, and stealing from us. Why do people like us always get the short end of the stick?
Anyway, I'm sorry to rant like this I want people to look forward to the things I have to say, you know, put good out into the universe and stuff. Okay, now I'm depressing myself because the only thing I did that was good since my last check in was that I reviewed someone who reviewed one of my pieces. I will do that for anyone who reviews my stuff, especially my novels, which I'm posting the first three chapters of one of my adult novels in a couple of days. So, look for that. and if anyone wants to check me on my grammar and punctuating skills, please do, I can use the help. alright, back to another night of escaping into one of my many worlds. Thanks for keeping up with me.
|To those who were keeping up with me, yeah, Uhm, sorry, things happened. Nothing to do with CV-19 just with other ER related issues. I have a friend who may have gall bladder stones, so I'm taking her to the hospital every other day. Every time she goes in it's a different diagnosis. Just tonight we found out that she DOESN'T have hepatitis and that it might be Gall stones. Why can't a hospital just do normal testing to see what things are wrong, I get that everyone's different, but for three days she's been putting her boyfriend, well, ex-boyfriend, through hell thinking that he was cheating on her and gave her Hepatitis. Now she's scared to go back and apologize to him. (I told her that if he were any kind of man at all, that he would support and forgive her, but that ain't happenin') He's a real piece of work.
In other news we have reached our goal of 4 cases for my county, it has been 4 cases for over a week now and no more have surfaced, our trace investigation must be superior to everyone elses. lol. Yeah right. But still 4 cases in the whole county isn't that bad. They just won't tell us where they are, north or south county would be helpful. I still see crazy people like the dude at our little grocery and deli who said he would gladly protest out in the capital with all the other morons that don't wear masks or stay six feet away, they all think it's a hoax down here! I'm going to get it out of sheer stupidity! And I'm trying, knowing me, I'll get it by some freak accident. UGHH! I hate people sometimes.
Oh yeah, and those following my escapades should know that I fell completely into wuss-dum. She is just interested in me as friends. I know I did things wrong. I should've come across more strongly. I only told her I liked her after she told me she had a date. in my arrogance I thought she might only be telling me this to get me to find some way of asking her out, but I did it in the most wussy way I could. Then I just beat myself up for a while before realizing that, though short lived as it may have been, I would have broken up with her by now anyway. she just isn't my type and I couldn't see it then. I don't know, maybe because she said that she only saw me as a friend caused my brain to hemorrhage or something, but I started to think of her as more of a friend, a friend with benefits mind you, (C'Mon, let's not be stupid here.) But a friend nonetheless. I do things for her because I can, I don't go out of my way to do these things but I have nothing better to do and I'm always finding myself available to do the things that she wants me to do, and I am just too available for her at every turn. There's stability and then there's just plain neediness and an overwanting to do things for her. I know at least one of those isn't a word but as writers you know sometimes we just have to forge our own ways.
Anyway, that has been my last few days in a nutshell. My best friend IS my ex-girlfriend as unusual as that sounds it's true. Part of me wants her back and probably always will. but she cheated on me with the loser she just got rid of, (kind-of). But I still love her with everything I am, but I just know that I could never trust her full-on ever again, and so I forge forward into an empty life, If only she knew right?
|well, today I was informed that there MAY be a case here in my county, but they haven't issued an actual test yet, but the woman is in the hospital with a ventilator by her side and is waiting to be tested. All of her contacts have already been notified and have been quarantined. Fort now the sheriff's office has graciously offered to bring food and other necessities to these peoples' homes for them to keep them all at home, we are trying to contain this as best as we can and hopefully, we got all of them.
Part of the reason that we don't have any cases here is as Trump says, "if you don't have any cases of Covid-19 then what do you need test kits for?" Uhm Duhh! sorry, that was my political rant for today. I try not to get political but sometimes it's hard not to. We don't have any test kits because we were never given any test kits, to begin with so we held the number zero. Is that a number? or is it nothing? I wonder.
Okay, IF anyone is paying attention to this, and I mean IF anyone sees my blog. I have been flirting with this girl for a while now and actually invited her to a private dinner at my place, just the two of us, and she said YES! so I'm hoping that she likes me, I just have to do this thing quick now to keep the spark alive. I hate to think that I'd have lost her if we were in an infected area. I like this girl!
So anyway, I am going to be working on my other book here pretty soon as I get out of the realm of my current work
I hope any of you get a chance to read it, I personally think it's pretty good, but I could always use extra critiques. I have to shout out to my partner in crime and the only one who reads my stuff continuously, and professionally reviews me by the way, Octavius . He totally rocks out and he knows what he's talking about. he's helped my writing in so many ways it's not even funny. I hope he will take as much interest in my other project as he has taken in this one. Either way, I love him anyway, he is good people. Ask him for a review, he tells it like it is.
Okay all thanks for putting up with more rantings from DuhhFactor, I love you all!
|Well, we're still here and hunkered down. That girl I like in the same building seems to like me back. I asked her if I could cook dinner for her some night and her son was JUST within earshot,(I thought he was too far away,) heard me and jumped in with a resounding and emphatic YES! So instead of a nice private dinner between her and I I get to have a rowdy one with her extremely ADD son. Not that I mind so much, He does like me. He's been sizing me up since he met me, wondering if I'm good enough for his mom. He's 13 and I can just tell. It's nice to enjoy a little closeness with someone special during these trying times. I feel better knowing that there are still no cases in my county. so I can begin to get real close to her now. Unfortunately she works at a DQ and has to work with customers sometimes, she's normally just in the back cooking.
They have issued warnings that if you have vacation homes in our county but currently don't live there that you cannot come in and live there now. they also can't rent the places out to other people. It is now illegal to do that in our county. They don't want to take the risk of someone coming into our "clean" county. Our buses have already stopped going out of county and I think all together now even, we may end up on lockdown as a precaution. The only vehicles allowed in will be things like The National Guard, grocery trucks, UPS type trucks, basically, service trucks. Good, we still need food here. I still have things coming from UPS and the USPS so I'm all happy about that.
I know that some of you are away friom your loved ones right now and I feel for you, I am in no way trying to belittle anybody, but I'm taking this opportunity to kindle what looks like a budding romance. I f we have to separate later than we at least know that we each have someone when this stupid thing is over.
|To be fair, there have been 55 of us tested in a county of 30,000 so we are technically Coronavirus free, but how much of a percentage is that of the entire county, seriously, I'm bad at math.
In any case, I ordered all my stuff, well, not all, but what I could right now from Amazon, essential needs get shipped first but mine still says this week, which I'm surprised. If I get my supplies than my weekly goals can come true and I can work on my mini's throughout the week. Anyways, all personal matters aside, they still haven't issued a stay at home ban for this county which means I can walk to my friend's house without anybody stopping me asking where I'm going. So far I have had to go to one friend's house because she hadn't had anything but rice for three days. Now in many Asian countries, that's just par for the norm. but here we need more protein, so I brought over nothing more than a meat lovers pizza and two chicken breasts. I knew she could use them to stretch out for a couple of days at least. especially during these trying times. Now she's been self-isolating and I've been self-isolating for weeks now and I can see that in a county that has no cases of Covid-19 that we should be okay. It was so good to see a friend who has not other communications in person. that's right I can't tell what's going on with her day to day because she has no cell phone and no wi-fi. That in itself is hard to live with. She's my best friend and lives about a quarter-mile away from me, so I have to walk that far just to see her and hope the cops don't stop me. I really hope they don't just yet, but I still wonder just who goes over to her house when I'm not there, are they a danger to me? I have normal friends, (okay, I wouldn't call them normal, but who would?) who I hang out with at night, who, by the way, are conspiracy theorists, who doubt any of this is real since Ebola and SARS never hit us here. I can only hang out with these people because my ability to go out and find new friends is very limited. Not that I don't cherish my friends in their own twisted ways.
Just after this quarantine hit, I met one of my new neighbors and I found that she's quite intriguing and has led me to the conclusion that we would be good as a couple. What should I do? She's as much at risk as I am working in the foodservice industry as I am of going to my friend's house. should we, or even, could we hook up in a crisis like this or do we have to let the chemistry pass and just come out of this as solid friends? While it never hurts to have more friends, I have been single a loooooong time and really don't want to die without finding someone who may love me like that. So is it worth it to take the risk knowing that we are both okay right now? And be like any couple working on the front lines, or should I shy away from it just because I'm at risk of dying? In other words, is it worth dying alone or with the knowledge that a person is dying with you in different ways for you when he dies? If you understand any of that. Okay, that's it, I'm out for now, that was just too deep for me.
|As the name suggests we here in an unnamed county have been declared a Covid-19 free county of the state of Washington. I however believe that to be total s***! We have no test kits here in this county. yes we are a small county but I feel we should be getting the same attention as the rest of the state, but as of right now, well 9 minutes ago, we are still Covid free. I have just recently found out that we are Covid free because we don't have any test kits available to us. That's right. We don't have enough people to actually warrant test kits! But that's okay since were a small community with less than three thousand people in in north Pacific county. We don't really matter. Now it is true that I haven't seen anyone sick or exhibiting signs of the Covid-19 virus, I tend to think that we have at least a few cases here in this county and if we don't stop it here than how can we stop it elsewhere. I'm not a big fan of our government anyway, but I think it's a total lack of responsibility to say that they have a case free zone when they haven't even tested anyone in our zone.
I stay inside, I stay away from other people. I go out to the store for groceries and beer,(hey, let's not get stupid here, I am all alone here.) But I only do that every couple of days or so, and I always wear gloves. I can't afford masks until tomorrow.
Everybody here walks around like there so high and mighty that our county has no cases, so I am extra careful. No one here stays six feet away from each other. Do you know how many people have cut in front of me at my local convenience store because I was standing at the six foot tape mark? It's absurd! People in this county just don't care. That's why I worry so much, just something as simple as not covering ones mouth when they cough, however it might happen, (Smokers cough or down the wrong tube cough,) it could transfer the disease to me. I am the definition of paranoid. I even have Grammarly to help with spelling and grammar issues in my writing! yeah, I'm that paranoid. I watch to see who goes to my apartment complexes mail before I check mine. I have an alcohol pad with me when I go check my mail, ya know, the mail man might have it too, look at all the mail boxes he touches.
I have Diabetes type II and so I'm at higher risk than some other people. Just before this whole outbreak happened a new girl moved into our apartment complex, which I might say is locked and guarded by surveillance cameras inside and out, so if anybody breaks in or comes in who's a felon, yeah, they get the treatment. LOL. but I like her and she likes me, but I won't let her touch me. I haven't had a girlfriend in seven years! no one that I felt that didn't do or sell drugs I have found.
In my opening statement I lead off that we don't have any Covid-19 people here in our, or my, county. Just north of me there is a woman, who is on WDC who has a case in her county. It is a larger and more reputable county. It is where Curt Cobain grew up and became famous. I hope to god she doesn't get it but it sounds like they have it under control, for now thank god. I have vowed to meet up with her and have dinner with her a few times and just never got around to it. God how I wish I had.
I'm writing this at 4:30 in the morning, I started off 45 minutes ago not knowing how to even start a blog. I thought that most of you should know how the poor counties of America worked. Some of you know. but now, if I disappear mysteriously, you all know why, God I hope not!
I live in fear every day. I am being told there are no cases of Covid-19 in my entire county, so as to lul me into a false sense of security. are they right? should I be okay? or am I right to cover up and be super careful? And more importantly, will all my precautions even work if we do get infected. If our little town of just over two thousand people get infected, I fear this to be a total loss, me included, no matter how much I isolate.
This is DuhhFactor signing off hopeing that all is well with all who read this today.