Psalm 90:10, "The length of our days is seventy years—or eighty if we are strong....
Three Score and Ten the Introduction,|
Well here we go, After 50 years I am going to take another attempt at writing. The first time was the Palmer writers correspondence school in 1969. The writing will be not a book that will be written with the idea of being published, But will be a writing of thoughts unencumbered by possible publishing and monetary gain. This writing will be a hybrid of Journal and Reminisce. It is important to me that the writings are my true thoughts at the time, not influenced by any factor. The writing will try to explain how a 70 year old white, male USA citizen now relates to today's world. Is every oldest generation lost in their own world, that they aged into? What do I see, and feel as I age farther. I know I am not normal as in what this world today would consider normal. But I hope I am in the ball park writing the thoughts of a 70 year old. I hope for you to learn to know who I am, As I search for Who I am at 70+ This work will carry on until I am no longer able to think or write. This will be done on a nearly daily writing interwoven with a life's reminiscing. This writing has been in the planning for 10 plus years. and I have now made it to this starting point. This writing is dedicated to My Wife The Kitten, My family, My grand children, Lukas, Levi, Luis, Lydia and Sonora Pearl. I thank you God that you have allowed me to have your Three Score and Ten Time.
It's the day after Christmas and all is well. Christmas day was different this year. The wife did not do a meal. We had no family visit. She did a desert and a Vegetable and we went the youngest daughters house about 1.75 hours drive away. It was good they made Duck and dressing. It was my wife and I and my daughter and Son in Law. We took the little Biscuit along. The two dogs got along good, No problem, But we did have two begging dogs. After dinner she connected to the Zoom thingy, and gifts were opened with my other daughters and Grandkids over Zoom. It was nice. but I am nervous about a live internet camera on in the house. I won't have it in our home. I want to keep our home private, No prying eyes, No Big Brother. We left just in time to get on the freeway before dark. I do not like to drive at night with close two way traffic. As for next year Christmas we will wait and see, But I can see us going to one of the daughters again. Our house is Just now too small for 16-18 people. The grandkids are getting to be adult size. The more important is the wife next year will be 69 and she is little and a bit frail. Doing a big meal for all is hard on her. but as I always Say "We Shall See".
Today we rested some, No busyness. I did sort out some Sheet Music. I may have not mention before but Saturday is our Sabbath. We do try to make the day different then the rest of the week. We try to honor God and his creation on that day. We try to rest, But rest is hard for me, not being busy. So I am sure we are not the best Sabbath keepers, but we do not forget The Sabbath either. I hope you have a Blessed evening and New Week.
I have had a exciting two days. I have been working on and cleaning a lot of Fishing Reels. I found one very desirable reel in the lot, a early 1950's Zebco with the old name on it. Now the struggle begins, Do I add it to the collection or put it up for sale? I do plan to fish with it at least once.
The other exciting thing I have been doing is sorting out sheet. I have been acquiring Old Music sheet music for at least twenty five years. It has grown too six computer paper boxes full. Being packed away it is hard to know what I have accumulated. It is time to check it out. I like the cover art work, Early movie promotion song sheets and the songs that bring back a lot of memories. I will need to decide what I want to hang on too and what to let go of. I am trying to again some space. The other thing I am trying to do is stay busy and not get down at this time this season. The days are going fast. We will be having dinner with my daughter and her husband on Christmas day. They are in a West Milwaukee suburb, about 1.75 hours away. I will drive home about 4:00. I no longer like to drive at night. So I will try to be on the Freeway by dark. It sure has been a strange Christmas, We have gone no place, No normalness. We sent the kids checks to buy the grandkids something from us. We will not see the grandkids this Christmas, A first.
It sure is windy here right now, and the temperatures are going to drop like a rock tonight. It sure should be making ice. Maybe next week I can get Ice Fishing down here. For me catching some fish does wonders for the winter mood.
My friends, I wish you and your families A Blessed and Merry Christmas and may we all have a 2021 going in the Right Direction.
It is December 21 and it is dark outside, It is dark a lot on this day, The first day of winter and the longest day of dark during the year. I always have the feeling that during the darkest months of winter we need to rest and become ready for spring and the productive season. I know that is how it works for me if I want it to or not. I sleep longer and slow down. I also gain a few pounds. When it is dark I get tired. At this time of dark days I also need to fight getting down with depression, especially at this time and this year. The bright side to this is we are on the bottom and we will be climbing out of this darkness hole until June 20.
On the 18th we started lighting our Christmas Room. I hung a few more old ornaments I picked up during the year. I will do more tomorrow. It is bright and colorful and lifts me somewhat. I wish you were here to see it. Know one will be coming to visit us this Christmas. My wife and I like to have a couple or family for dinner. I like to visit one, on one with a person or couple. A large crowd can be a stressful thing for us. If some one can tell be how to post an image on this blog, is it possible? I will post some images of the Christmas Room. it would be nice to know someone has visited and was shown the room. Have a Blessed First day of Winter
I awoke last night ponder What Is normal? With all of the changes the world has seen in the last 70 years and the continual speed up of recent change, How do I know what is normal? Is there a Normal World? Has there ever been a Normal World? Is Normal World different for everyone?
What I have come to reason out is that what we come to think of as normal is put in our thinking at an early age, maybe 10-12 years. Old enough to recognize and come to conclusions of the world around us, but young enough to not yet be locked into thoughts. You are still somewhat flexible in the development of your thought. As we age our thought becomes more rigid. And as a result what we think of as normal becomes rigid and set. It become as benchmark for what we see as normal.
The world today is a long way from my benchmark of what is normal. Without going into my up bring at this time that affected my view of normal, I will state some of the normal I staked out at an early age. Faith and Trust in a Christian God, Two parent families, Self responsibility, Self reliance, A man's word was as good as gold, Promises were kept, Pride and satisfaction in a job well done, A real days work for a days pay, Respect for authority, National Patriotism, Politeness, Logic and Common Sense, Respect for Parents and all Elders.
Thinking about it I am sure there is more normal in my subconscious mind. But the point is it is my normal. It is also generally the normal of my generation. I have driven a stake into my benchmark normal. It will not budge. I will not try to budge it. I will not accept todays younger generational normal. I am happy with my life long normal and consider everything else abnormal. I will remain Old School stuck on real honest values. I pray that their are many of my time that will remain holding on to their Normal.
So I had better answer the questions stated prior based on my reasoning. How do I know what is normal? Normal is a individual factor within your mind picked up at an early age. Is there a Normal World? NO because normal is a moving cultural factor. Has there ever been a Normal World? No It has always been changing. Is Normal World different for everyone? Yes based on our early years environment.
Are you living for the future or the past?
It is now late in this day and I can try to give my thoughts on this question. I am an old soul and the past ways color my present world. I try to hold the PAST close as it teaches us something if we keep a connection. The teachings and experiences of past individuals can provide us wisdom if we desire it. The past is a collection of past individual "Now Moments". There are times when I am home sick for the past. But today, Now at this "Now Moment", I am Thankful to see the present "NOW Moment" how ever fleeting it may be. I will try to use my knowledge of the past to influence this "Now Moment". As for the future, at my age that is a questionable prospect. The future How long, Under What Conditions may it be? I find myself pulling in my horns now. How can I justify a major purchase, How do I justify a risky move. Stability is the only road now. I will fight to keep the walls from farther closing in on me and the wife. I will work to keep as many of our options open as long as possible.
Can the past help with the future, Maybe, Maybe not. The one thing I see in the future is uncertainty and that is troubling for me. Here in this "Now Moment" the future is scary. I will want to stick with the comfort of the past and the present "Now Moment". But I know I have some future and it will arrive and already has. I Pray with God's help I will be able to handle the future with dignity and grace.
If you are chasing to find happiness, You will never catch it, Happiness needs to be found in the NOW Moment.
The week here is running together. Our biggest exciting event will be going to Madison tomorrow and grocery shopping and picking up at the auction house. I did make a sale over night so there will be a trip to the Post Office today. The little dog is at rest on my lap as I one finger type this entry. I really do not understand why the Little Dog has to be such a bed hog, He just stretches out all over.
My actual work activity today will sorting and marking fishing tackle for the Flea Markets I hope to do this spring, and Summer. I just reasonably purchased four tackle boxes of stuff, so I sort and mark. Some for the Flea market, Some for me, Some for the round file. I am also in the process of listing Little Golden Books for the 40's and 50's on my selling site.
The Positive for to day is I am here and it is not snowing. For mid December the temperature is moderate, Not bad. It is nice and cozy in the office library where I will spend most of the day. I hope you are having a rewarding and satisfying day.
It is starting too, and looking like winter. I just can not wait to go play in the snow, NOT. But as winter normally is for me I get depressed and the days run together. I am thinking that doing this writing and communicating with others will help. I think I know some what House arrest feels like. We do not go any where, Shopping a couple times a month, a walk to the post office, a visit to the drug store once a month. That is about it. We say Hello to the neighbors when it is snow shoveling time. Until things change, church is of the attendance list also, I can not wear a mask over my nose for two hours. And surely it is not healthy to do so. But we do have our Little Dog and Big Cat. The wife and I are company together, I can talk to the kids and grandkids on the phone. And I have your company as I write. And so I think we are still being blessed in this time of trouble. We are still doing better then many as I read.
The wife is off now walking to the Post Office to mail Christmas Cards. We as others I am sure mail cards to people we should see and write to during the year, But do not. We have been sending Christmas Cards to Switzerland for some years now. It is one of my lives most important accomplishments, Find the family is Switzerland. We have been their a half dozen times in near the last twenty five years. The first visit was like a awakening, I was able to more understand who I am and why. I am the third generation born here in the USA, but remain very Swiss. But three generations, that is a blink in time. I still have a hope of returning one more time. This last time will not be easy. The familie is in far eastern central Switzerland, Canton Graubunden. I am very proud of my swiss heritage.
I hope you are coping well with this winter reality. Have a Blessed Day.
|Three Score and Ten + Day 117
We got back from the north yesterday early afternoon. i wanted to get back earlier so I could mail if I needed to. I did have two sales to mail, so glad I returned early enough to mail. At the North woods I did spend two afternoons ice Fishing and did end up with two good meals of fish, one walleye. I did have a problem, I picked up a screw in the same tires as last summer. When I went out Thursday morning it was as flat as It could be. It is a good thing I have an air compressor up there. I pumped it up and ran too town. I got the tire fixed after going to my third repair location. The prior locations were filled up with work and would not do the repair. I did manage to get on the ice by 1:00.
I had planned to write yesterday evening, but I got real tired and depressed. It is best not to try writing under those conditions. At this time of year, and more so this year with this China virus and the Elections It is easy for me to become depressed. This will be the first time in my children's lives and know Grandchildren that I won't be spending Christmas with all of them at our home. My oldest daughter is 48. They all live about two hours away but all different directions. We are the one centrally located.
So I was going to write earlier today, BUT we got hit with a snow storm, The wet, sticky, heavy white stuff. It looks pretty, But no fun to shovel. but it has to be done. I will go back out and do more later. I do some and then rest some. The Little Dog has a problem taking a walk in the snow, So I have have to shovel a area for him to do his outdoor job. What a spoiled Little Dog. but he says he gives therapy for payment, He is right. I hope you are having a Blessed Weekend.
Today was bad news and good news. The bad news was the little Dog Biscuit had a bad night yelping in pain with any slight movement. We had him sleep with us thinking that might help, It did not. So we did not get good sleep either. We thought it might be his teeth. The good news was we did get him into see the vet. It sounds like he pulled or sprained some neck muscles. We were given some dog anti-inflammatory pain pills and told keep him quite and resting. After a few days we will see how he seems. If not better we will need to x-ray his neck. I think his neck problem is how he lies in his kennel, Side ways with his head cocked up against the kennel wall. A bad habit I would think he picked up as a puppy raised in a kennel. The kennel is plenty big but he does not often lie the long way.
We leave for the north woods tomorrow. I am not in a good mood to do so. Maybe I will feel better once I leave. I am starting to feel down. I have no good reason other then this scourge on our land. I will come back with the Ice Fishing equipment. No ice here yet, Maybe by January. I may be able to ice fish up there now. We are going to try and return earlier Friday. I hope you have a satisfying week.
3. National Roof Over Your Head Day. Tell us about the favorite room in your home.
I wanted to do a few key strokes to write about this house we call our home. It is a typical large late 1800's Queen Ann style home. With the normal many rooms, but they are smaller but very functional for the two of us. The room I spend most time in is the office library room. Being a large old home we moderately heat the whole house and supplement with electric heater in our occupied room. So that favorite room is nice and cozy surrounded with my books, papers and desk, table and computer. It is full but not cluttered. I do my internet business work in this room. We also eat in this room if we are alone. A house is a house but a house becomes a home with your personality given the time to do so. We will have been here 23 years this coming January. We love this home. We will not leave it easily.
I think I need help, I just spent the good part of two days sorting matchbooks. Match books are a great collectible but difficult to display well at a flea market. People want to see certain matchbooks and will not take a lot of time to look, like everything else in our culture I was to be easy. So I sorted the last auction lot purchases into categories and combined them with others of like categories. Then put them all in four pocket plastic pages, fourteen to a page. Then labeled and priced and put into a three ring binder. People collect matchbooks for the Art work and Graphics, Or a location, A business type, A product, A memory and it goes from there. It is an easy type thing to collect, They don't take a lot of room, They don't eat much, They are low maintenance, and they won't break the bank collecting. The most in demand are the 1030's 40's and 50's and now 60's. Now that you have the low down on matchbook collecting go dig yours out and see what you have. Everyone of an older age has some someplace.
The little dog is on my lap as I type this, He does not seem to feel well today. It seems it maybe his ears, They are big enough to get caught in the door. At any rate he said hw would feel better is he could sleep with mom and dad tonight. I think he will.
I need to start thinking about ice fishing. I just brought up a Ice fishing box lot purchased a few months ago I need to sort. We will go up north on Tuesday next week. I expect to Ice Fish some. My brother says he is catching some legal walleyes of late. I could use a few walleyes for the freezer. We shall see. Have a Great Week and a Blessed Rest.
| This day I wanted to write on this prompt:
7. Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.
Getting Wisdom But How, First off Sincerely ask God to grant you Wisdom. Second, Have a healthy life style so you may age, You will have some wisdom rub of on you with age, you can not help it. Wisdom after all is a collection of life experiences that you can use to make good decisions if you desire to do so. Third, You need to make a real decision to acquire wisdom. It all will not all just fall in your lap. Watch other peoples good and bad behaviors and the consequences it produces. Learn by watching and listening to others. Seek out your elders and learn from there experiences, Most are a store house of wisdom. Wisdom is learning how to put 2+2 together and come up with 4. It is learning how to think, with logic. It is learning how to lead a Productive, Organized, Satisfying and Happy Life. It needs to be realized true wisdom is a Life Long Quest. I wish you a rest full blessed evening.