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by Kenzie
Rated: ASR · Book · Writing · #1160028
Fibro fog, pain, writing sandwiched in between. Quotes. Sermon notes. Encouragement.
A Texas Sunrise

Sunrise on Surfside Beach, Texas

A friend, William Taylor, took this picture. He visits Surfside Beach with his dogs almost every morning, watching the sun rise while the dogs prance about at the water's edge.

This is only about ten miles from where I lived in Lake Jackson, Texas. Sadly, I only visited this beach about four times in the six years I lived nearby.




Each day is a challenge. A challenge to get by without thinking about the fibromyalgia pains. A challenge to stay awake when chronic fatigure wants to take over. And a challenge to navigate through fibro fog.

I haven't been writing as much as in the past. For years, I wrote at least 500 words a day. Now, I'm lucky if I write 500 words in month. Sigh.

For more information about what my day (or life) is all about with fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, chronic pains, IBS, depression and everything else thrown in, check this out:

It's a New Day  (E)
My pain and welcome to it.
#1028189 by Kenzie


Sunrise on Surfside Beach, Texas
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May 31, 2013 at 11:30am
May 31, 2013 at 11:30am
#783928
Yes siree Bob, sometimes the bear eats you. My son's dad was "Houston's premiere piano bar-ister" back in the late 70s and early 80s and he sang a song with those words.

Sometimes you eat the bear
Sometimes the bear eats you
So c'est la vie
And c'est la guerre
Fair is fair is fair.

That was probably the chorus and I have absolutely no idea what the verses said. But I do remember those lines. (And the tune.)

Yesterday was a day when the bear ate me.

I had a 9 am doctor's appointment. I've been dealing with a chronic sinus infection and suddenly it felt like it was also in my chest and my ears and throat. Grrr. Sure enough it was. So the nurse practitioner I saw prescribed an antibiotic and told me to take 12-hour pseudoephedrine. I've taken pseudoephedrine before, the 30 mg ones. The 12-hour pills are 120 mg. And within 30 minutes of taking the antibiotic and pseudoephedrine, I WANTED TO DIE...AND HOPED IT DEATH CAME QUICKLY.

I've been through a lot - physically - in my 61 years. Knee injury. Back injury. 14 hour labor pains (and then a C-section). Chronic pain (because of fibromyalgia and arthritis). I've had chest pains and then had doctors arguing about whether my problem was heart or gall bladder. (Turns out they were both wrong. I have arteries and veins that spasm...because of the fibromyalgia and Raynaud's Syndrome.) But what I experienced yesterday was so much worse than anything I'd ever experienced before.

If you've ever been told to take niacin supplements - the kind that does "flush" you, not the non-flushing type - you know what it feels like to take too much. You get flushed. Your heart might race. It's temporary and not that bad.

What I experienced yesterday was similar to that, but about 100 times worse. Oh, I got a flushing feeling. But it felt as if my internal temperature had gone off the charts. Not only that, but it felt like I was having a hot poker shoved into every orifice of my body. Seriously. My heart raced. I cannot explain all that I felt.

I thought about calling 9-1-1, but thought I'd be cautious first. I tried calling the doc's office, but the call went to voicemail. So, I contacted my pharmacist. He informed me that I was having a reaction to the pseudoephedrine. He told me to eat some sugar and carbs and to drink some milk and that the effects would wear off in about 2-3 hours.

Okay, I was calmer. I took a chill pill (ie something for anxiety) and then my son decided that I should take my blood pressure.

When I had been at the doc's office earlier, my BP was 103/68. When I took it - after starting to calm down and after taking my chill pill - it was 157/90. I'm glad I didn't call 9-1-1 because they might have thought I was having a stroke or heart attack with the symptoms I was displaying.

Eventually the stuff was out of my system and my BP was back down to 105/70 in about 2 1/2 hours. Whew.

No sooner was that all over and done with than a guy from the power company showed up. We've been having some electrical problems at our house and that scares me. Years ago in TX, I saw an electrical fire and it wasn't pretty. Our lights have been flickering all over the house.

We had an electrician come and he did find a loose wire at the breaker box in the garage. But that didn't stop the flickering. He came back and found a loose wire at the meter outside. But that didn't stop the flickering.

Next we called in the power company. By the time the first guy showed up we had realized that the flickering was happening when it was windy. Ah-ha. It has to be an outside problem, right? The first electric employee didn't have a bucket truck. He put his ladder up and shook and shook the wire leading from the pole to the house. But he couldn't make the lights flicker.

The next guy brought a bucket truck and, lo and behold, he found a loose wire at the transformer. But, you guessed it. That didn't stop the flickering.

Yesterday when the power guy came to the house, I think it was the 5th one. He put connected some handy-dandy gadget to our meter that will tell them when we're experiencing flickering....to try to figure out why we are. It's going to be hooked up until Tuesday so they have days to analyze.

No sooner had the power guy gone than I got a call from our internet service provider (the phone company, since we have DSL through them) saying that the repair guy was minutes away from our house. For some reason, we suddenly have some strange stuff happening with our internet connection. The modem and router were 3 years old, so the guy replaced them. But he also said that our problem might be because of the electrical flickering problems we're having.

Great day in the morning. Sometimes the bear eats you.


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May 18, 2013 at 3:34pm
May 18, 2013 at 3:34pm
#782932
And now white is the new blue? According to a commercial for jeans, it is. Weird.
April 2, 2013 at 9:53am
April 2, 2013 at 9:53am
#779519
The other day I heard a designer say that orange is now the new beige. She went on to explain that now that orange is considered a neutral color, it pairs well with greens, blues and purples. What?


Sure enough. If you look at design magazines you'll see that orange is being used a bunch.


Orange is also seen in fashion photos.


Hmmm. In one of my many trips to doctors in January I thumbed through a fashion magazine while sitting in the waiting room. I guess it's a good thing that I was born when I was. Don't get me wrong. As a teen I wore mini-skirts and even had flower designed hip-hugger bell-bottom jeans. But there is no way I would want to be a young woman today. I could not wear green stripes paired with orange polkadots. I just couldn't do it.


That's the kind of thing I saw in the fashion magazine - plaids with stripes, stripes with polkadots, flowered patterns paired with checkered patterns. Yikes. The models reminded me of a bunch of homeless women who were wearing all the clothes they owned layered on top of each other.


And speaking of layers.... What's up with buying a tube and putting it around your belly (accentuating you obesity) pretending that you're wearing layers? Yes, I understand that it's healthy to love yourself no matter what your weight. But does everyone have to wear clothes that look like they belong to your younger (and much thinner) sister? Sure it's fashionable to claim that you're a size 6, but I worked in retail for years and you're not fooling me. I know a size 14 when I see one. Geesh. Those tube things around the waist would be great if they worked like the old girdles we used to wear (yes, even under slacks).


And older women? Come on. It was fun to wear short skirts when we were young, but they look foolish on old ladies. And when did we forget how ugly bare legs can look? It's bad enough to always have bare legs as a young woman, but when you're old and wrinkled and have varicose veins....








Awww.  Such a cute angel.

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
February 23, 2013 at 1:40am
February 23, 2013 at 1:40am
#775778
...I figured I'd try to meet it all by my lonesome in the month of January. And, lo and behold, I did! Yeppers. Spent $3500 all by myself in January. Of course, it helped that my prescriptions for fibro meds were $618 and $224 (compared with $400 and $154 last year before we met the deductible. We do have good insurance, so after we meet it most meds are "free" - i.e. covered by our premiums.)

Anyway...

I've been battling a sinus infection for months and saw the doc 3 times in January about that. The only reason it's a big deal is that the dentures I got last year don't fit worth a ding-dong and they can't do a new mold until I can breathe through my nose. Grrr.

Saw a new fibro doc.

Saw a new IBS doc. Had blood tests. And had another colonoscopy. Last one was 7 years ago. Everything's still fine there. This new IBS doc prescribed an antibiotic - the same one they give to traveler's who forgot and drank the water - and it worked. I've been suffering with IBS every day of my life for over 30 years and one round of this antibiotic, plus some probiotics seems to have fixed everything up. Let's pray that continues.

Saw a doc about my left knee. (I injured it at work back in 2002 and had knee surgery and it hasn't been right since.) I can't get cortisone injections for the pain because cortisone doesn't like me at all. When I had cortisone injections for a back injury back in about 2000, I not only had the "normal" reaction of having everything turn to fat, but I couldn't taste anything for an entire year and the cortisone permanently thinned my skin. I bruise and bleed all the time. In fact, the last time I tried working, the last 3 days I worked, I bumped and bruised and bled so badly the folks in personnel followed me around with a Polaroid camera documenting that I wasn't doing anything dangerous to get hurt like I was. I finally gave up trying to work...

About the knee doc...I did get some injections that will try to get my body to start producing its own stuff around the knee cap. Right now, it feels like bone on bone when I walk. These injections are going to try to fix that...and so far I think they are. Hooray!

Also saw my eye doc, but that was a follow up visit and already covered under what was paid last year for my cataract surgery and then laser surgery a few months later. My eyes are great. I wore glasses for distance since I was 10. I had 20/200 vision in one eye and 20/400 in the other. Now I'm at about 20/25, definitely good enough to drive without glasses. Yippee! I do need a very weak pair of readers, but I can deal with that.

What else.... I know there were more doc appointments...

You'd think I was old or something. *Smile* Nah. In April I'll be 61. Still young.

I do need to get more active here.

I will work on that....in between doc appointments.

This month I had only 3.

Next month I have 3 scheduled.






Rose signature

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
February 23, 2013 at 1:22am
February 23, 2013 at 1:22am
#775777
I saw a great t-shirt the other day. It said, "Let's eat Grandma. Let's eat, Grandma. Commas save lives."
January 5, 2013 at 5:07pm
January 5, 2013 at 5:07pm
#770543
Please go to this web site and vote for my church, Salem Community Church. While you're there, you can see the video our pastor sent. We're one of ten churches selected, in the running to get $60,000 for outreach. Our church does a great job with outreach now, but we're not a big church. This would be so helpful.

Here's the link:

http://greatoutreachgiveaway.com/vote


Rose signature

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
August 7, 2012 at 2:11pm
August 7, 2012 at 2:11pm
#758017
I don't know who you are, but as I looked at my statistics for this blog I noticed that between 8 and 12 people view the page each and every day. Wow. I guess I'll have to look more closely to see how many of those views from inside the Writing.com community and how many are from outside.

So what's up with me?

I had my teeth all pulled in November of last year, due, they tell me, to both having fibromyalgia and the medications I take for all of my various maladies. By June I should have had my permanent dentures in place and looking like a million bucks. But that's not how things work for me. I'm still wearing the "intermediate" teeth which looked great when the were put in in November, but as they've been changed (adding linings and scraping linings away as my mouth changed over the months) they're now rather ugly.

So why haven't I gotten my fancy new permanent dentures? For one thing, my mouth still keeps swelling and that makes it almost impossible to fit something comfortably. And for another, the stress over my stupid mouth and dentures caused the cataracts that had been quietly lurking decided to go into full blast acceleration. Yeah.

And did I mention that I turned 60 in April. Yep. This young 60 year old has denture problems and now cataracts. Unbelievable....to me, anyway.

I had one eye operated on July 31 and the other should be on August 21. If all goes right, I'll end up with better vision than I've had for the past 50 years.

So keep those prayers coming, okay?





Rose signature

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
February 25, 2012 at 1:20am
February 25, 2012 at 1:20am
#747800
Go past the first few seconds where you might want to punch the young woman out. Hopefully this video will go viral.


An Apology to President Karzai on Behalf of Americans  
October 24, 2011 at 3:16pm
October 24, 2011 at 3:16pm
#737763
October 6, 2011 at 11:32am
October 6, 2011 at 11:32am
#735984
Today God sent one of our 15 year old members to my portfolio. There she found this item that I posted long ago: "The Answer Is Prayer

What a blessing it was to have someone that young encourage me. It was also good to revisit something I wrote long ago about prayer.

When I taught a Vacation Bible School class in about 1987, the kids loved to pray.

One boy simply asked, "Holy Ghost, help me pray." Then he got quiet.

A girl asked, "Well, are you going to pray?"

The boy responded, "God's Spirit is going so fast that I can't keep up. Just listen with your own heart."

The other day my son, who is now 27, told me that it's difficult for him to understand that his mother is no longer the active women that he remembers from his childhood. Back then, I was a regional director for a home party plan. I taught Sunday School. I was a Lay Speaker at our church. I volunteered in the community and at the private school where Derek attended. Our life was a whirlwind.

He also remembers having grandparents who were active in their 60s and 70s and it concerns him that his mom, who hasn't quite reached those ages is not that active.

Boy, oh boy, did I want to shout at God about how unfair it is that I cannot do the things I once did. Fibromyalgia stinks. So does arthritis. And all the things that go along with them. I hate the choices I face - constant pain without medications or feeling drugged with them. I hate that. I hate that "fibro fog" makes me do crazy thing, like opening the refrigerator when the microwave timer dings. I hate that.

But as I sat that afternoon talking with God, I was reminded that even though I don't even write as much as I once did, my words are here for the world to discover.

Cianter discovered some of my words today and gave me the encouragement I needed.

Thank you, Lord, for sending someone to visit my portfolio today. Thank you for sending a young encourager my way at a time when I needed some human encouragement.

August 30, 2011 at 11:38am
August 30, 2011 at 11:38am
#732796
August 29, 2011 at 7:53pm
August 29, 2011 at 7:53pm
#732736
I shared three YouTube videos here: Welfare in America  

One is titled Welfare in a Free America. The second: Welfare: How Freedom Was Lost in America. And the third: Welfare: How to Get Freedom Back.

About the third, I wrote:


Pay special attention to what the past comptroller says about what Social Security is and what it is not in the third video. He says it's a wealth transfer program, not a savings program. It's an unrecuperated tax. It's a tax now and spend now scheme. Nothing that you pay into the system will be there when you retire. Not one penny. It was never designed that way.



If you doubt this, go and look at the official site of Social Security and read the history. If the first woman who collected Social Security retirement income put in for only 3 years - a total of $24 - and received checks of $22 per month for 30 years, how could it be that she was paying for her own retirement? She obviously was not, nor are any of us.



What you think you are entitled to is not your money. The money you will receive in retirement is what your children and grandchildren will be paying you. Think about that when you cry about how you don't want to lose what you paid into the system. You've already lost that. If your kids and grandkids are going to pay for your retirement, wouldn't you prefer that they hand you the money and not make it filter through the government?



At about 20 minutes into the third video, listen carefully to the harsh words and think about what is being said. If you're a Christian or if you're a TEA party member, a conservative or a libertarian, these words need to be taken to heart. Are you really a freedom lover? Do you really value the Constitution? Do you really care about future generations? Or are you too selfish to sacrifice? Do you expect everyone but you to sacrifice? These are questions that we all need to ask ourselves.






Rose signature

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
August 8, 2011 at 7:28pm
August 8, 2011 at 7:28pm
#731005
If you think you're too small to make a difference, you've obviously never been in bed with a mosquito. ~ Michelle Walker



Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed, citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has. ~ Margaret Mead

















Daisy Sig from PassItOn

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
August 4, 2011 at 12:30pm
August 4, 2011 at 12:30pm
#730674
All he would have to do is to list all the failures he's had that he has blamed on Bush, on Congress, on oil companies and jet owners and then do a turnaround and admit that he has failed the country. All he would have to do was to admit that he's been a horrible president, but a great divider-in-chief. If he did that, half of America would keel over with heart attacks and the ones who were left - his faithful - would gladly re-elect him. (They'd probably also bow at his feet as he changed the Constitution to allow him to be president for the rest of his life.)



Daisy Sig from PassItOn

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
July 19, 2011 at 4:23pm
July 19, 2011 at 4:23pm
#729091
Go ahead. Do it as a favor to me.

I've been at RedGage.com for 2 years now and my total earnings is $23.75. When it gets to $25, I can cash out. Yippee skippy. So I need a few more page views here and there.



Vacation in the Moutains
http://www.redgage.com/photos/kenzie45230/vacation-in-the-mountains.html

Rascals Chasing Customers in the Rain
http://www.redgage.com/photos/kenzie45230/rascals-chasing-customers-in-the-rain....


Thanks for the help!

Blessings,
Kenzie









A gift from Kiya

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer
June 4, 2011 at 2:14am
June 4, 2011 at 2:14am
#725394
March 22, 2011 at 9:36pm
March 22, 2011 at 9:36pm
#720317
I found out the other day that this slide show I made has over 10,000 views. Wow!


http://www.gather.com/viewVideo.action?id=11821949021863467
March 19, 2011 at 2:25pm
March 19, 2011 at 2:25pm
#720112
If you're looking for ways to earn some money for your Writing.com membership, and if you love getting into discussions, here are two possibilities:



http://www.mylot.com/?ref=kenzie45230



http://kenzie45230.gather.com/




These surely have helped me. Just thought I would share.
February 12, 2011 at 3:28pm
February 12, 2011 at 3:28pm
#717700
Sometimes one pays the most for the things one gets for nothing. Albert Einstein
December 15, 2010 at 12:54pm
December 15, 2010 at 12:54pm
#713664
The Apostle Paul modeled praying well. He prayed for churches and for leaders. What a great place our world would be if we all took the time to pray for each other as Paul prayed. Imagine if we prayed like this for our friends and family, for our church leaders and our political leaders.





Colossians 1:9-14 NIV



For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.





Shall we pray that God fills the people around us with knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding?



Shall we pray that our friends and family and leaders live a life worthy of the Lord and that their lives will please him in every way?



Shall we pray that their lives bear fruit, that they grow in knowledge of God, that they are strengthened with his power and might so that they have both great endurance and great patience and that they joyfully give thanks to the Father?



And shall we pray the same things about ourselves?







Awww.  Such a cute angel.

"My Favorite Neighbor
"Sharing Sunshine...It's What I Do!
"Admirable Women
"Whose Work Are You Stealing?
"The Potter's Cup and Saucer

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