Hi everyone! I have not been on here for a long, long time and in a few days I am going to close my account. I have given this a lot of thought and think it is the right thing to do. This place felt like home to me for many years and I used it to escape my offline life, sharing some of my darkest times in my blog and through my poetry.
However, I no longer feel like I need to do that. My life is probably the best it has ever been. I'm living with my partner of two years, in our own home, with our adorable guinea pigs. I have recently completed my Master's degree in Psychology with distinction and will soon be working one day a week as an Assistant Psychologist, alongside my Activities Coordinator job. I'm also working with my university supervisor to publish my dissertation. That distant dream of being a Clinical Psychologist feels so much closer and I never thought I would get to this point.
I have not written creatively in a long time and I do not feel the need to do it. I think it served as an outlet for my distress, but my mental health is pretty stable these days. I still have difficulties, but overall I am coping great and I will be getting specialist treatment for my Body Dysmorphic Disorder in the near future.
I don't know if writing will ever become part of my life again, and I'm not going to worry about it. If it does, it does, and maybe I'll sign up here again. If it doesn't, it doesn't. My life feels pretty full at the moment and I think in many ways I feel content.
So, in a few days (probably Sunday) I will close my account, which feels like a big deal. But it also feels right, and as if I will be saying a firm goodbye to a part of my life which was really tough. I really do want to put that behind me, but this place will always be special to me and I had some amazing experiences as a member here. I also made some wonderful friends and I am so sorry that we have lost touch. If anyone wants to rekindle that friendship, then please let me know and I will send you my email address.
I'm feeling pretty emotional writing this but I don't want to leave my account abandoned. I think I'll end this with a big thank you to everyone I crossed paths with here on Writing.Com and I wish you all the best in the future.