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|Happy Belated Birthday! I hope you had a really good one!|
|Saw your handle! |
Thought I'd drop by and say 'all the best with the Master's Thesis!'
|This is a small group of compassionate individuals I run. It's a place to vent and grieve. No obligations. Just thought I'd mention it. |
|Lately... there's been nothing but bad news in the family. I don't know how to cope with all the illness cropping up... and the death. |
I've never been afraid of dying.
But losing the people I love is a completely different matter.
Last year, my grandmother's sister's husband (who I've been really closed to since I came to Japan 8 years ago) passed away due to heart problems.
Months later, came the most shocking news that my dad is diagnosed with stage 2 lung cancer... (The chemotherapy so far seems to be going well, so that's at least a relief.)
Then, at the end of December... my grandmother's best friend (who was like a great aunt to me) passed away due to again, cancer... (she had colon cancer when she was in her 50s... but she lived to be 94, before the doctors discovered that the cancer cells had been slowly moving towards her brain in the years after her initial treatment.) With everything going on in my family, and because I was away in a different prefecture for my studies, I wasn't told of her passing until early this February.
Now, we again received another bad news.
My mother's brother... (my uncle who I remember playing with me and my siblings a lot when we were younger in the Philippines) has just passed away a few days ago due to colon cancer. Since he and his family live in the province... and have been suffering from financial problems, he refused to go to the hospital for treatment and just waited his time.
We weren't even told he was suffering from cancer...
I really hate all the dark and gloom and sadness and grieving and death we've had in the family in the last couple of years...
I've never cared that much about my own mortality... but when you're faced with death, not your own but someone else you deem more important than yourself (my family), when you have to be the one letting go... and never seeing those loved ones again, but still having to deal with the aftermath, the pain of losing them... it's just... really, really... sad and painful and frightening and hopeless...
I don't know what to do.
What hurts the most is that I wasn't even able to say my last goodbye to both my great aunt and my uncle... the time and the distance separates us.
I hate being informed too late.
I hate not being able to see them one last time.
Before the end, I wish I could have talked to them one more time, laughed and joked and simply been there beside them.
(Long rambling over... I'm relieved to get some of this off of my chest.)
I haven't been around WDC as much as I would have liked around the last weeks of November...
My dad was diagnosed with stage 2 lung cancer, and it's been tough for our family (especially my mom)!
The first radiotherapy session my dad has undergone had been successful, so we're a little relieved.
Unfortunately, this year will be the first Christmas (and New Year) without him at home, as he needs to stay until mid-January at the hospital.
I'm still running a fundraiser until Christmas Eve, so I've been dropping by for a couple of minutes at least twice a week to check on the activity and to post any updates.
There are still some packages (Click on the "Stolen Gems" dropnote!)
without any bids: #4, #5, #6, #7, #9 and #10!
Also, sunnystarr has donated packages (#13 & #14) which includes two of her Exclusive (Commissioned) MBs for "Days Of Sunshine" and "Monthly Calendar Contest " ! The usual cost for that is 100K.
But the starting bid for both has been lowered to 15K!
I'm expecting some bid wars for both!
The raffle also needs more attention, I think!
Tickets are up for purchase for 1,000 GPs each.
Some of the MBs have already been given away.
But there are still more to be distributed!
(Check out the "Recovered Gold" dropnote to see the other MB prizes!)