Grief is a very hard emotion and can take years to process the five steps. I cannot remember the five stages but I know it is hard to deal with. I have lost many loved ones over the last eight or nine years.
My favorite boss of all time was Joe Fletcher. I worked as a paramedic for Boston EMS from 1991 to 2020. I got injured on the job very tragically which forced me into retirement.
You have worked a lot of places but I find that is highly interesting. I feel you must be a very interesting person.