|Y'know what I think your personal stuff holds a certain power. There's a quality to the tone of what you bring forth from your core that draws a reader into this. And though, it is not strange to find youth in distress among the youthful here or otherwise, this stands out.
Maybe it's me ... maybe it's just because you seem so honest in the delivery. You don't lay blame. You seem to be seeking release.
But I (dare I say we?) can relate to this. I've been there, and perhaps it's a comfort to read someone of similar, haunted perspective willing to admit the pain rather than pretending a night out with friends or a good workout will solve all the issues.
I will say - hang in there. It will get better.
Meantime - you know where to find me.
"Thinking of you gives me a concussion" - great line (I picture myself whacking my head against a wall trying to overcome resilient memories.