|This one hit a little too close to home for me. Which for you as a poet is a good thing. But for me as a reader and one who recently went through a painful divorce it is painful for me to read, because it is so well-written.
Even though I am a male, I understand only too well the emotions you express in your poem. And even though I am unable to cry on the outside, I can assure that I have drowned in the tears within my heart.
One of the most powerful lines in the poem for me is the following: "She gave up, now forever she'll be, just a haunting memory". You hit the nail right on the head with that one! I even find it difficult to do things that remind me of my ex-wife, things we used to do together, because they trigger memories that at one time brought me joy, but now only give me unbearable pain.
I must confess, I am a little concerned about the last two lines in your poem. Even though it's not explicit, there is a certain hint of suicidal ideation in those lines. I hope that is not the case. But if it is, I pray that you at least have a friend that you can turn to for support. You are a gifted poet, and it would be a tremendous loss to the world if you were no longer here.
This is my second divorce, so from previous experience I know in time it does get better no matter how great and unbearable the pain may seem at times....and pain is something that I am somewhat of an expert on.
So, I hope I'm reading more into this poem than there actually is. But if you are having suicidal thoughts and/or impulses, please seek help.