I've joined writing.com fairly recently but I can connect with you on many levels. I lost my sister shortly after birth. I didn't get to share even a day with her. I'm almost clueless about what I post, although our genres differ. For me it's the love for the art. You definitely gave me a shot of energy when you talked about how you made it through your initial doubts. Thanks. And congrats on your winning the contest. Good luck with your future endeavors.