I came across your poem in the monthly no form contest. In reading this entry, I thought I would offer some feedback, one quill shaker to another.
Good theme... loss of love, classic! The Autumns and Winters of relations... solid!
It sucks to get older, it sucks to feel the years passing, everything really sucks when you've misplaced your person. Genuinely great emotional communion with your fellow humans (I like to think thats the end goal with poetry... that brief deeper intimate connection with our readers)
Thing to consider with this piece. You may want to remove the repeating stanza. The theme and imagary that is nicely catpured in the main content, is really overshadowed by a little too much of your not so subtle point.
Repition like this can be a good tool to build tension or set rhythm in a poem. The frequency of the stanza is a little too tightly packed and creates more of an anxiety that is not quite same kind of emotional discord the rest of the piece sublimely portrays. Its sort of like emotion canceling emotions dualing for my attention. Consider experimenting with removing all, or some, of the flashing neon stanza and see how your piece reads.
I forgot where I picked up this writing tip a while ago (or how it was originally phrased) but it was essentially: great writing invites the reader to walk intimately with the author as opposed to forcing them into the van at gunpoint.
On the other hand, I re-read the poem a few times, ignoring the aforementioned stanza, and it is really touching otherwise. Having walked in the season you are portraying, you captured the color and the sense of that kind of monotonous re-lonelyness well.
Just some observations. Hopefully food for thought at least. Thanks for posting. I'm giving 3 stars, I think it has the gist of a solid 4 - 4.5 with some revision.