Tears from Blue eyes

A poem I wrote 2 years ago while I was dealing with a loss.

I'm not sure I understand
I feel it
It hurts me
I'm so confused
Howcome you're gone
I see you in my dreams
In the end
What went wrong, you moved on
I slip away
Lost in my own mind
Memories dance like harsh reminders of what was
Although I try to avoid it, it haunts me
You are still deep within me
It's like a glass box
I see you, I hear you
I can't touch you
Removed from before
I refuse to accept what I know is the truth
It's hard to make sense of
Don't leave
Though you're gone, I couldn't stand to lose you
There's nothing to describe it
A puzzle perhaps
The sparkle in your eyes
A place in my heart
I forever remember what was long ago as though
It was only last week
Pain as raw as ever
You are my heart, my soul
And everything in between
Life without you is death