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what happens when one man's need overcomes another man's inhibition |
a man holding another man gently in his arms guardian angel in a moment where physical intimacy cannot exist, no place, no desire, no reason for ambiguous overtones a unique moment where there is no yearning but another desire, yes, which was too imposing that to help, to nurture, to bring strength where is was lacking witnessing need, great and just, to comfort in fellowship I recognize your personal strength to give comfort… my tears spent emotions opened and shared two men have come closer with no necessity of anything other than affection I once dreamed of a man dead long before my arrival I now need that grandfather, and in the pain of this revelation your strong arms and shoulders offered me comfort unhoped-for, surprisingly delicate, masculine, different from imagined maternal rocking, your spontaneous gift of a place for unshed tears to forget their modesty, flowing freely permit transformation… finally able to let go, relying completely on the intensity of your strength the stress of this moment has finally passed into a new calmness thanks to a man unafraid of suffering through the tenderness, discovered unexpectedly in your arms I found the protection of generations of fathers and grandfathers unknown before that moment… the generosity of your unselfish concern renews my faith in life, in mankind, in manhood, in fraternal love your awareness permits me to look towards my future with renewed serenity at last I will voice the request for your arms, having learned of their warmth, their solidness, their boldness that they carry the weight of my burdens down the banks of an invisible river flowing forward off of a magic carpet my chanting joins our sentinels, helps encourage you to your last commitment as my protector, friend, mentor today's need of your strength has finished now in its place will rest a memory of power that we may both revive in our private hours of need that is the goodness that one man's courage of may bring to another in your arms 24-25 october, 2004 for pierre delage |