scattered thoughts

thoughts and feelings of the loss of someone so special to me

Memories are allI have left
Images fading to nothing but dust
Sounds of your voice fading into air
Moments we shared seem so few and spared

Guilt flows through my heart as if it is keeping me alive
To wallow is selfish, yet I can't help myself


Shadows run across my mind while trying to fall asleep
However hard I try that always seem to keep me awake
If only I could have saved you, made you better took your pain away
Or been there when you needed me in those last minutes of your time here

I often wonder if you can hear my prayer
If you can see me and if you still care
The longing of the gap you left, the piece of my heart unrepaired
All I have left is memories like a faded picture

Until I see you again
Our friendship I will always treasure
Your love I hold on to each day
Hoping for that one minute I would get to see your face

Always in my thoughts.............