Running to stand still

its my self hating poem

Running to stand still


I’m running for a reason, im sure I’ve been here before
I’m running to escape, with the lies you tell more

I keeping screaming inside, for someone to help
But they keep fucking ignoring me, telling me to relax

I’m on my own in this, I wouldn’t want you near me
For when I go crazy, the whole fucking world will see

I took those drugs for a reason mum, coz you were never there
I take these pills for fuck sake coz you never care

Ill fucking destroy myself without any fear
Till im so fucked up, I just don’t care dear

This own self hatred, this own personal hell
Is mine all mine, from my own heaven I fell

Ill cry on my own, ill fucking cut myself till I bleed
What you cant understand, is that im already dead

I died before I met you, and ill never awake
So before you go , close the fucking door,

Were all so fake