blinded by tears

this is a poem written at a very hard time in my life. hard to understand

my eyes are being blinded by my tears
as my blood seeps down my arm
your love is ever fading
i wonder if it was there at all

do you think it was pretend?
a little game we liked to play
i wanted it to never end
for you it never started

and i sit in the dark
pale like porceilin
make up running down my face
my only release is the razor in my wrist

i used to wear a bandage
to cover up my scars
but the pain was getting worse
now the cuts dont even hurt

the room starts to spin
and i stare into your eyes
ur begging me to stay
but we both kno its to late

and as your tears fall
u realise u love me?
ur pain will be over in a week
i was just a toy

no body will ever understand
how i feel for you
u dont even see it
coz ur blinded by ur tears