Good-byes are forever...

visualizing my mother at my funeral

You're standing over me staring, I'm lying on my back/
A thousand thoughts rush through ya, but still you wish I'd crack/
A smile, it's been awhile since you seen one/
Tears surface ya eyes and it feels almost like ya dreaming/
Leaning over this box you begin to notice some stuff/
Like damn this the first time i seen "G" in a tux/
I look good right, aside from my lifeless body/
Reminiscing 'bout times way back when you potty/
Trained me---Even earlier when you named me/
Guilt hits ya gut for all the times that you blamed me/
Not knowing the truth but what's done is finished/
Tears hit ya cheek sadness knows no limits/
On ya knees now and crying/
Unknown feelings emotions flying/
Knowing ya baby's dead inside ya dying/
What's needed is closure/
Love and hugs from ones that know ya/
Stand, wipe ya face, smooth ya skirt, regain composure/
Soldier type tactics/
Can't change a thing that's what a past is/
One last kiss on my forehead, good-bye now, close the casket.............