Numb

How I felt the morning after the lowest point in my life - Part III

So many tears I’ve cried, I’m numbing. I can’t feel anymore. My heart is broken, out of my body. I have nothing left but my brain. These thoughts that cannot feel do not pollute my decisions. But how can I decide? I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. Either decision will hurt. Yes, I am numb, but I will thaw, as everyone does. Regardless of whether I want to, I will love again. Though at this moment in time I don’t see how. My eyes communicate to my brain that my heart is lying there on the floor, too mutilated to ever function as a heart again. But my brain remembers broken-hearts past, and knows it will.