This Fallen Escape

this is a few weeks old. this constant state of mind is all I can depend on.

Does anyone know I'm still asleep and dreaming...I'm lost here and screaming
For someone I cannot see here....they tell me I don't belong here
But something's gone so wrong....been lost here far too long
This land of certain question. This silence of self beckons
As my throat begins to burn....the colors run and turn
A gray life just like you gave me....I've found it here, waiting
I scream no more. My soul is worn
I've given my all. To take this fall
The thoughts of life keep me breathing. Memories of you keep me bleeding
But the nothings are consumed here. The numbness is in rule here
I'm still asleep and dreaming. and no one hears the screaming
The others who join me are busy ignoring
The cries through eternity falling before them
Stretching their life so thin...and dragging me down
When all this time I thought I would find you here waiting
I've found nothing but myself. A decay I could never know
A process of loss and wanting my past
A diametrical existence....this is not what I saw in my dreams