Not Guilty

Dedicated to my best friend.

My mind is racing.
My heart is beating
Faster and faster,
And then receding.

It doesn’t make sense.
It doesn’t feel right.
All the feelings I have,
I’m trying to fight.

I know what I want.
I know what I need.
But why is it not,
Making sense to me?

Sometimes I love you.
Sometimes I don’t.
I should break it off.
But I know that I wont.

So the feelings remain,
Like a rock in my heart.
Why should I end?
What we didn’t even start.

Goodbye I said,
I hope you understand.
This didn’t turn out,
The way I had planned.

But I know that it was,
The right choice I made.
You should have known,
When our love started to fade.

So I’ll move on.
So I’ll find someone new.
To tell you the truth,
I’ve already found a few.

No it’s not wrong,
Yes its ok.
It’s not my fault,
Things happened that way.

Love took over.
And complicated my life.
It held me down,
And stabbed my heart with a knife.

What im saying,
Is things turned out for the best.
My new man will fix my heart
And insert it back in my chest.

Now I am not hurt,
Better yet I am free.
I am not to blame.
And I am NOT guilty.