Shattered

A poem about addiction...

Shattered

Shattered like broken glass
My thoughts are slow
My surroundings go by fast
Picking up all the little pieces
As I get cut I think and know
The lessons life teaches

Nothing seems to register in my mind
My demons and punishments of every kind
Nothing seems to come to a stop
Falling, trying to make my way back on top
Fall, fall, fall is all I ever do
As I fall I think of something new
What other roller coaster ride can I take?
Every ride leads to hell when my life’s at stake
Mistakes after mistakes, what else can I make
With every sip I feel the earth shake
Just the taste of it makes me shiver
A disease I’ve created; I feel it slowly slither

Will I ever finish picking up this mess?
Can I ever put my mind at rest?
My torments are as black as night
Struggling with life and with every days' fight
My fights are never way too bright
I think it’s time for me to do what’s right
My addiction has caused me much pain
My thoughts about it make me go insane
People look at me and think that I am free
Addicts are never what people expect them to be