one more tear

but most of all this final tear is for the son i lost

What is this hollow feeling
the anger and the pain
the tears roll down my cheeks again
my baby boy is in my thoughts
i wish i could be happy now
but part of me has gone
i sit here by my self once more
with no one to call or talk
my grief has left me all alone
i want the pain to go.

Charlie-james was my miracle
i wish i just knew why
what could i have really done
to deserve such a cruil life.

my daughter is my angel
she always smiles and laughs
but still i feel this emptiness
that pain she cannot heal
so all those people out there
who tell me " just think of her"
ill tell you now i always will.

these tears i shed now
ive held back for far too long
so one more tear to help me
and one more tear to heal
but most of all this final tear
is for the son i lost.