LIfe as I see it

Just my view of my feelings

I am a void!
I am a void in this life
I am here but you don't see me
I speak but no one hears me
I feel but no one knows what
I am me and no one notices

God put me here
For what reason I don't know
To love and be loved is what I want
To be happy is what I want
To be understood is what a want

God Took my Amy
First he gave her to me
Then at age 30 he took her back.
He left me with her son.
It is wonderful to have
But not enough

God gave me another daughter
But in essence he took her back
No the physical her, but the personal her
She is on this earth
But she has little to do with me.

God gave me a son
He is an adult
Who can not grow up
I raised him but he does not remember my teachings
Therefore he also is almost gone to me.

God gave me wonderful grandchildren
But as they grow in age
Slowly he is taking them away
Giving them a life of their own
They rarely share that with me

God gave me much in my life
Why then do I feel I am a void in this world?