day to day

denial versus dealing with real day to day life.

today, there'll be no breakdowns
there'll be no tears
or whispers
or thoughts
today i will not think
instead i will live
i will push harder
i will forget the past
i will open my mind
i will open the blinds and let light in
and then tonight i will lock my doors
when i awake tommorrow
all will be the same
i will push just to get through the day
i will be reminded of a shameful past
my mind will be plagued by something or another
and the curtains will not be drawn

day in and day out
a constant struggle
half full or empty
this glass is missing something
and so am i.