Words Not Left Unspoken

I wrote this poem after I was in a fight with my boyfriend. I was very upset at the time.

I look at a blank page for minutes

I'm trying to draw what's on my mind,

But then I realize what I'm looking for.

I want the right words

I don't want to say something

But I need to

Thinking about it continuously is pulling me down

My words can be harsh, maybe too harsh

I think I'll keep my mouth shut.

I can't stand knowing that what I said might hurt

I never want to hurt you

I'm constantly thinking about you and everything

Wondering if you ever think like I do

Harsh words hurt too much

No one prefers pain like that

Unless their life is completely gone

I don't want an empty soul

Over-taking me again.

The pain was too real to deal with.

So as I think about what to say

And I try to keep it in, I'm too quiet,

But I burst out and tell you how I feel.

You are sad, wanting to change again.

Four words can hurt so much.

"I don't know anymore."