Fading

Non-Rhyming poem written a while ago when I felt alone when I was surrounded by others

I've got friends that I love.
I've got a family I care about.
Whether or not they care or love me back,
Doesn't matter to me.

I've got someone I love.
I've got people surrounding me.
But what I can't figure out
Is this strange feeling.
It hurts so very much.
It drives me insane.
It pulls at my heart.
Like I've been cut and bruised.

I feel beaten everyday.
My energy is sapped and drawn.
I put on a happy face,
But that's not who I am.
If I have so much to live for;
So many people who claim to care,
Tell me, why am I despairing?
Why am I the one left out?

All the warmth and all the joy…
Is it never going to be mine?
If it's true that I'm so loved,
That I have as many friends as they say,

Why do I feel so alone?