New beginning

About deciding on if I should go for a new beginning or keep things the same?

Will I still be the same person I was then?
If the scars disappear,
will the memories go with them?
Or will I be left with the torment,
and nothing to show for it?

Is the decision for a new beginning,
really a new beginning at all?
Or is it just a chance to pretend once more,
to paint that mask of happiness.
To wear the smile with pride,
and fake it with all my might.

If I could turn time,
go back to the past,
would I change a thing?
Or would it turn out the same?

So now my decision is this;
to rid of my scars;
my past and memories.
And carry on painting the mask.

Or keep the scars,
along with the memories and pain,
still painting that smile,
but not forgetting that;
I will get through this okay.

That none of it matters anyway.