Realizing me

When you realize that life was not what you meant it to be.

Looking in the mirror,
who is that looking back at me?
who is she?
where did I go?
can't be me.
Want to scream but couldn't,
want to run but couldn't
want to yell who are you and
what did you with me?
no answer.

when did I change?
I look so blank
without feeling,
could this really be me?
look so lost,
need help.
have no where to turn.

I fall on my knees,
cry out to God,
need to find me,
scared to change,
but knowing I have to,
will I be lost forever?

No! I can turn around,
find the light at the end of tunnel,
find the person I once was,
the happy me,
the confident me,
the take the bull by the horns me,
not afraid me,
realizing me.