Life-saving treatments can come with mixed feelings.
|The life-saving treatments have been approved -
All of them. Right after finals, they will be
Performed. Knowing full-well what that means,
I am both relieved and saddened. For what I will lose.
My doctor will be out of town. Other doctors
Will have to do it. They are scheduled.
I am afraid. I do not fear them, but instead
Who I will be when I wake up. I want to be.
Better. Well. I want to enjoy what I once did.
How many treatments will it take? I do not
Know. I am scheduled for four right now.
Two before Christmas and two after. Yes.
Today, I did my pre-op physical and electrocardiogram.
Updated the medication list, got the lab results...
All so that I can forget who I am in a few days
And hope that when I wake, life will be better.