Ever Thought..

This is something i wrote at a time i felt alone. Its strong worded & also deep and dark.

Ever thought why I dissapeared from your life?
Why I pushed you away?
Why I just up and left?
-Because I couldn't take no more heartbreak.

Any idea why I never want to hang out anymore?
Why I kept my distance when we were in the same room?
-Because I had my urges.
-Because I was dieing to feel your touch.

Do you know what drove me insane?
-Knowing your out there with someone else.
-Loving someone else; like you never loved me.

Or what this insane did to me?
-The thoughts and feelings drove me to..
1) Constant crying.
2) Enough strength to pick up a blade.
3) Low enough to let it glide across my arm.
Leaving blood flowing; arterys pumping; heart slowing;
veins jumping; problems going.

Ever though your the reason why I am the way I am?
-The reason I do drugs to escape to a world unknowm.
-Why I drink to keep the thoughts of you; out my head.
-The reason I cut; because you made me feel lower than everyone.

Congrats for you. You really know how to ruin someones perfect life;
into a life of a PHYSCOPATH.