Illusions of fear

How I once suffered as a schizophrenic.

In my mind I suffer with pain

More searing than coals of flame

Fear is torture like any harm

An unbearable distress and blaring alarm

Imagine inside that you have no soul

That you’re trapped in hells’ eternal pull

And that no penance or prayer can atone

Your evil nature and your beings’ hellish home

I cried out to God in the delusion of my mind

Yet no rest or piece did I ever come to find

Yet after the time of my minds’ restoration

And the relief from my fears’ cessation

It was He who worked through mans’ invention

I was made better by chemical remedies

Then I found I could clearly see

I know that He subjected it to make me stronger

And now I am plagued in this way no longer

So thank you God for you your loving ways

And ultimately the place I will eternally lay.