I'm Jaded

poem i typed up when i first got my laptop

Behind these eyes there are lies
That I easily hide

To prevent the torment
I hide the moment

Which only prolongs my suffering
Left in pain writhing

Wishing I could end it all
Wanting to take the fall


To feel free for once in my life
Forget about the strife


But instead I stand frozen
As my mind begins to open

The gates I so desperately try to keep shut
There isn’t anything that will be enough

As the gates open
All is unspoken

The pain the tears the worries the fears
Come ripping back to me as I remember all the years

I wasted
All because I’m jaded