Ice

a poem about a time in my past, about the strength i hold even if I'm falling apart

It starts with a pain in my chest
a hidden fear.
I’m screaming silently.
As I gasp for breath.
The air its spinning
... Madly

I can’t breathe,
My vision starts to bluer
I can’t stop thinking
I can’t cry
But why am I

My knees grow week
As I fall
Pined to the ground my breath study’s
But the pain still there
The scaring memory

I must not cry
For I am ice
My tears will remain frozen
My face will be solid
Decisively so

I must not run
Though my instinct tells me so
I hold responsibilities
I must remain still

My fragile body
Must never break
My mind like shard glass
Is enough

My heart will remain as is
I will not open it so
For it’s the one thing that may still be
Unbroken
Decisively so.

Even though I fight not to break
I must remain calm
I must calm u down and act as if I am fine
In the end I will survive
I may be broken but I am still me
The ice within me will keep me strong