I am 14 years old and have type 1 diabetes and I suffer with major depression.
|Chapter one: When my Life Changed
Five years ago, it was a bad year for me. On august 13th when I was nine I was diagnosed with type one diabetes. It was really hard for me because some people made fun of me about it, I didn’t know how to handle it.
A couple of months after I was diagnosed with diabetes, my cousin was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She was practically my sister. I was ten then, and I didn’t know how to handle it. That was the starting of my depression, and since then it’s been growing.
Having all the obstacles was really hard because I saw my cousin every single day. We lived so close to each other. Two years later she passed away. I loved her and always will love her. I saw her on her last days. I remember when I went to go see her when she was dying, and my dad said for me to kiss. It was really hard for me to do that, because she was not the cousin I knew. I knew the one that was joyful. I regret not kissing her forehead. I regret so much that I didn’t do with her before she died. She was only 24 years old.
Now that I am fourteen I realize that I shouldn’t be guilty, because I did nothing wrong. Now I realize that even though she isn’t with me, she is still in my heart. I will always remember her and she will always be in my heart.
Above I mentioned guiltiness. What is guiltiness anyway…? There are two definitions one is saying having committed an offense, crime, violation, or wrong, especially against moral or penal law; justly subject to a certain accusation or penalty. If you are guilty the way I was this is not the definition for you. When we say guilty we think of this even though in some casesj it doesn’t even make sense. The real definition you want for being guilty on a subject of death is characterized by, connected with, or involving with guilt. This means that if you are close to someone or involved in something and something happens to your close one or what you are involved with takes a trip downhill makes you guilty.