go away but don't go away
|You know what I think is stupid?
That you pretend that you care for me!
It drives me insane how you search for me.
I hate that you do or say anything, in order to get my attention.
It annoys me that you say my name while talking to another.
I want to yell at you when I am clearly trying to ignore you.
Yet you find ways to remove me from my train of thought.
I want to scream at you and tell you to GO AWAY!
Can’t you see I am trying to forget you?
However, you make it hard for me to do so.
You look at me, I look away.
You talk to me, I only smile and walk away.
You talk to my friends; I do not open my lips to speak
I speak to another, you slide into the conversation.
This is not cool!
You told me that you did not feel anything for me.
I respect your decision and try to avoid you in order to give myself space.
Damn it boy! You are making this hard!
You are toying with my head and it’s not nice!
But most of all…I think its stupid that I love everything that you do….to keep me from going away!
You make me sick to my stomach because the more I want to walk away, the more I want too while holding your hand and never letting go.
PS: I think my thoughts were all over the place. But this is the best I could get out of my head. I am such a sap!