Ashes from the past

A poem on struggle

Unintentionally

I think of you
Constantly
Day and night

It feels like half of me died
Those years ago
My heart is throbbing
I handled my future like a fool
Nobodies fault but mine


I am filled with such fresh regrets
I cannot heal
Yet I cannot go back
If only I could
I do not think you wish that

It would be unfair
And so I am unhappily happy
For your sake
Regarding everything you have found and created



I am sorry too
To write this
Unnecessary foolishness

Add it to my long list
Of notes ill advised
Foggy foresights
Clouds of selfish folly

Life now seems a hapless void
I must stop living in the past
I must stop being angry
With myself
You
Though I feel so cheated

By foolhardy dreams
I am broken
By my unwillingness
To forget
By my inability
To love
I am bittered
By all that was and could have been

My emotional skeleton
Now burnt
My remains
Now
Regrets and Ash

I am forced to hope
Those ashes transplant seed
And someday I may live again

To forgive
As amnesiac
To think day and night
A fool

To sidestep downfall
To thrive
To welcome partnership
To love something
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