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A poem of unrequited love and obsession between a queer girl and straight girl |
She so perfect And I’m not even perfect at all She so perfect And she doesn’t even mind my many flaws I feel my shyness and quietness makes me an outcast everywhere I go But when she’s around none of that seems to matter though Your perfection is flawed Just a misrepresentation of you, that’s all You let me in, let me in Just to shut me out, shut me out I’m still sad from the days that you went away I’m over you but I still have some feelings lingering on for you, it’s mostly amorous which every time I see you it seems to be getting stronger And I know whatever you felt for me is no longer Your hugs are short and you don’t even have that look in your eyes for me anymore which causes me to act petulant whenever you say something to me You don’t even talk to me about HIM anymore But I think you know it’s best not to You found love And I found heartache You found happiness And I found sadness I knew in my heart we were never meant to be I even knew more so that day I kissed your lips and felt nothing I always thought we would have a deep something I mean we had partially, but all is left now is a deep nothing But I’m still sad from the day he stole you away It’s been a while since you were you Now you’re like this happy in love chick that always talks of him and buys him shit It’s not like I ever wanted or expected shit But it would have been nice, thoughtful of you for all the shit I fucking bought, wrote, and said to you for you to get me or write me something as a little, maybe just a little appreciation, gratitude But nothing, nothing, all I get is nothing So fuck you, all I give you now is an attitude I guess I wasn’t nothing, nothing, not even a real friend to you I was just some quirky queer chick who admired you and you loved that because you loved that I loved you and gave you excessive attention Fuck, now I see what you are, pretentious But now I regret every stupid poem or gift I ever gave to you So throw it, throw it all away And leave no trace that I was a monomaniac for you You What makes you so special, the one I was so obsequious for Do you remember that poem I wrote you and I said somewhere in it that my heart was indebted to you Well it was just flummery rubbish Throw it away, throw it all away And leave no trace of my vulnerability Fuck me for making myself so vulnerable to you So no longer will I But I really am happy for you And sorry about the attitude And I will no longer act like a bitter heartbroken bitch I am over it, so through Because I still love you When all else is lost What is the meaning What is the cause Keep writing to relieve Needing something to retrieve Never giving up, still holding up, to believe And achieve the ultimate in me Oh beautiful eyes You’re the reason to which sometimes I cry at night Because sometimes I wake up with such vivid dreams of you and all I want to do is hold you tight These thoughts don’t come easy These moods don’t come steady Feelings at unease Even this cool humid breeze Won’t bring my soul back to peace Lacking the skills of conversation Causing me so much frustration There is no sensation You let me in, let me in Just to shut me out, shut me out Fuck you I’m through I miss you You know the old you The non-fat, skinny fitting into your jeans you The angry sad but sweet you The you that texted or called me every once in a blue moon you The you that every once in a while confided in me and let me hold you when you were upset you The you that used to talk to me, now all I get is the unspoken awkwardness you I miss you The before him you Staring into your glamorous amorous light eyes You got me all goggle-eyed and tongue tied Is it a no surprise That you give me butterflies Making me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside I am an irascible monomaniac thanks to beautiful eyes |