My 2019 Non-resolution resolution
For a few years now I have seen this exercise posted each January. I even gave it a whirl once. I think the only thing that stuck with me from that was giving my writing a chance. Glad I did, too. I have spent the better part of this month mulling resolutions. As with the rest of the human race, I have made my fair share of resolutions in the past only to have those good intentions left to fend for themselves on the roadside of life.
It is the concept of “Dear Me” that I really wrestle with here, writing a letter to myself and giving me a lecture of sorts. This is not necessarily a bad thing, mind you. We all need a pep talk every now and again. My problem is which “me” to give the lecture.
I am not talking about Sybil-like personalities here. I refer to the different facets and roles of my life. Mothering is on simmer these days. Being a grandmother is now a new lesson to learn. Full-fledged employment has given way to retirement and volunteerism. Two muses vie for my attention. The one who wields her magic through words and the other who blends metal and fiber to create things from yarn and fabrics.
I have reached a stage in my life where I do not feel the need to have to meet any goal other than the one I choose when I wake each morning. It took reaching the sixth decade of my life to realize that “no” is an acceptable answer to give to people and their expectations of me. It actually has been amusing sometimes to watch the reactions and quite satisfying at the same time. Having a serious health concern tends to change ones outlook on life too. More on the order of “ life is too short…”
So I guess, my non-resolution resolution will be to continue doing what has been working for me recently. I thoroughly enjoy the freedom retirement has given me, the freedom to explore my writing, my fiber art, my world and my relationships with my family and friends. This is a gift to be treasured and reveled in. So this year I will continue to live, write and create. Can’t think of any better advice than that.