Tale of an under confident girl.
I wish I could fly high.
I wish the world was full of colours,
I wish my life was filled with flowers.
No matter how hard i try, there is always an if and but,
No matter how I feel inside, my hard life is a truth.
We always dream of having a wonderful childhood. Enjoy the world in its true form 'as we expect it to be' , and just live the moment.
And Who doesn't? Everyone has their own set of dreams. Some dream of becoming a pilot, while some fancy becoming a doctor, well i dreamt of becoming a "confident girl". Yes, you heard that right. Oops! Read that right rather.
How important it is to be confident enough depends on ones basic nature and attitude. I was an introvert in a group, for sure. But one on one conversations were a win win scenario for me. But that was not enough. I would struggle to get up and answer the questions for which i had the answers already!!!! Fearing what if it goes wrong? What if everyone laughs at me?
This "what if" played a crucial role in destroying my life a little if not whole. I couldn't enjoy and hold onto basic childhood memories which every individual rather treasures his/her whole life. Just because of mere fear which doesn't do you any harm at all. Well Its good to be scared sometimes but not whole life.
If I would be given one thing to take out from my life, then it would be, FEAR. Fear of failure,fear of society, fear of parents, fear of getting noticed, fear of just being you. And now I pledge to not letting myself down and not live my childhood again even if my story doesn't tickle anyone's stomach who can connect with it.
Hope to continue my writing untill i get over all my fears. Wish me luck folks. Love all..