by Estrella Mae
A brief poem about my procrastination issues
|“I’ll do the dishes tomorrow”
Peanut butter and jelly
Smeared across the plates, which are stacked on top of the bowls, and partially-filled glasses stacked on top of those.
To turn on that faucet
And let the steady stream of water work its magic
Although I’m not foolish, and I know
It would only wash away part of the mess.
I need to let that water
But the handle is rusted.
Cemented in its place.
Impatiently waiting to fall--
To crash against that linoleum tile,
Shattering into flakes
And broken dreams.
My pile of dishes sits in my kitchen sink
Not touching me,
I don’t even have to go near it.
Yet somehow it’s heavier than any other object I could possibly carry.
It’s very presence
Is enough to make my whole body ache.
Flies swarm the bits of food
Various places of my pile of dishes have now grown mold.
They have been there for months now.
Is there a limit?
It’s about angles
Location is key too
And obviously weight.
If I stack another cup just a centimeter too far to the right
My dishes could risk being crushed to smithereens.
What’s the worst that could happen?
My pile of dishes could certainly withstand one more.
Someone places a glass on top.
“Do this one while you’re at it”
Those words make me feel sick.
Why am I
The only one
Whose pile of dishes
Seems to only grow?
Of that stack falling
Fills my body
And my mind
Yet I stand
On the opposite side of the kitchen
A terrifying sense of calm
I exhale and walk away.
The option of waiting
Is always there, protecting me from that
Pile of dishes.
I’ll do the dishes tomorrow.